What is it global warming I’m always just like what what is that what is that cuz it’s about glaciers no it’s not yes it is global warming they cool off the world that’s what I To w welcome back oh my God yeah like let’s just do the intro together cuz honestly it’s not just Trish anymore like I like kind of like tricked you into being my co-host like every month I just keep bringing she says trick to me like I would not sneak into your house
And beg for this opportunity I keep I just want to put this out here like I was just saying this it might be a little morbid but if I found out I had one day left to live this would be what I would do with my day no way really I’m
Not even literally kidding you this is this was so fun we did a full like Glam and I wanted us to have the same face I’m like oh oh my gosh I know your Glam always plays but I’m like oh my God use my makeup artist for like a day cuz it
Like her makeup artist was everything too we the same face it’s like crazy we are literally twins right now and it’s like no one loves Halloween like you like yeah no one loves Halloween like you you do and like we’re living for this I feel like anyone else if we made
Them do this they would be doing it like for us oh for you know what I mean and we’re just people don’t like love it like people will do it but they don’t like get excited I get so excited do St from I was just me immediately same
Thing like trying to psych analyze it do you think it’s that we like love to be like not us yes that’s exactly I like to be anyone but myself I think it’s like growing up I was like I just want to be on movies and TVs I don’t know who I am
You know what I mean oh my God literally like right now I am a fbot I’m in Austin poers I am not tanojo and it feels great it’s so great to be a fot would be so exciting like you don’t have to do I’ve never seen the movie well actually I’ve
Only seen it once when it first came out it was horrible like I really do not like Austin Powers but I love F Bots I think they’re cute they’re so cute they robotss right that’s all they are right well that’s with no brain or anything they just like the ideal woman yeah
Exctly that movie was made by a man for real no I don’t find Mike Myers to be that funny I mean that’s a little like scandalous but I don’t think him’s like that funny do you know him is he Mike is he Austin po yeah and he’s like
Shre oh my God I forget how young you are we’re just saying this you’re so young no but I love like I love an older reference like I love a like and not even that’s an older reference that’s like common like everyone my age knows Austin power seen he almost before my
Time like he did like Wayne’s World and I was like a a kid like I was like it was like you weren even born so I just love a [ __ ] costume like I don’t always do my research that’s the problem I’m you just like to wear the fun
Costume absolutely I’m the same way but I also never seen like you like this you know what I mean usually you’re like in your pants and your tan outfit I just like watched it I was like wow you’re like gorgeous like you look like a model
Person like I couldn’t help I was just like oh my God you look so good you at 25 I didn’t look like you the thing is if she will gasp me like that first of all that’s insanely delusional she’s so beautiful you look stunning the skin is on glass like the titties are
Everything’s giving you look amazing yours are like nice well I told you I’m stuffed the house down Bo I should have stuffed my I made them so so much pting into just patted oh but I’ll put a sock in there I brought socks did you really
Such a bra stuffer I’m so sorry if the tits don’t fill something I will stuff wait really oh my God and yours are natural right like we were talking about that you never had surgery never had never I had a nose job but like I would
Do I want more I it’s like fun I hate to say it so you like a [ __ ] like okay is that a Bella porch song Right a Bella porch song I just she had a different different context it’s like the same field [ __ ] yeah like like hers was all
Female empowerment mine like get under the like get as fake as possible your nose is fake yeah my nose is fake oh I didn’t know that did you get it for like a Devi of septum or something well I would get really bad nose bleeds my whole life like really
Bad it would bleed out of my eyes and my ears and all this [ __ ] and it was like super scary and so I got yeah like out of my eyes and my ears that like satanic or demonic like that happens I know isn’t that kind of creepy yeah I’d be
Really scared cuz you hear that in like like lore like people like bleeding from their eyes oh my god I’ve never thought about it like that maybe I am Illuminati but maybe it’s not a bad thing did Jesus bleed from his eyes right no that’s my new bit I’m like I’m
Jesus Moses it’s like stop literally thought there was maybe something good about bleeding from B maybe not I don’t know not probably not and so I was such a creepy little kid too when I like knew it was going to happen I would like I I just can’t
That’s so weird and you went to a doctor um once I got money I went to a doctor for it and I CAU aiz like the whole inside of my nose and you’re supposed to do it like every 10 years but so I hope it doesn’t start happening again but it
Looks so good what did you get you got it like what I just got it like like cuter smaller I I honest I would want a second one like I really would I yeah and then I paid for a second one and then I had like a worldwide Scandal and
It was like one of my first scandals so I was like I had to stay home and like skip the surgery cuz I was like all scared wait you didn’t go to the surgery cuz of the Scandal cuz this was before I understood like this to shall pass I was
Like I need to start applying this was like the ubbs like the beginning like whole like that whole Scandal and I was like I should probably stay home and like manage this and it’s funny cuz now like I would just get the damn nose job oh for sure I would have
Got the nose job even more because I’m like it doesn’t matter if I die because like everyone hates me anyways you know and then I felt mentally and it’s like damn you know what I mean I could have just been like hopped up on the drugs not even paying attention to the Twitter
Trending totally I used to surgery when I didn’t care if I like lived because I was just like well if I like what now I’m like more scared because I have stuff to live for so I’m like I’m more nervous to get surgeries but honestly then wait but that’s crazy cuz you must
Feel so like Vindicated right because he apologized to you so you’re just kind of like wow do you feel so good about that I think it’s kind of like it happened so much like later in time that I was like when it happened I was like I just woke
Up and I was like this is funny like like not funny but like what’s the word I was like oh my God you apologize like no way like feel like wow this feels nice there was definitely a time in my life where I was like that like seeing
That apology would have like meant the world to me like and now I was just like oh it’s really cool he’s grown as a person I’ve grown as a person and I’ve like just it’s all past scandals especially that one though like I look back and I’m like I wouldn’t change
Anything I think it’s like I really I think I needed that at the time for different reasons like I think it was like you know it was a really good quick humbling at the beginning of my career and I I just imagine if I hadn’t had
That I would have been like on my high horse and just a completely different person so really what you it just what did it change in you like what was it um the reminder that all of this like can go away it was like the first time like
Really realizing that you know what I mean and the reminder that like you know what I mean like you could up and have to grow in front of the whole world and that feels like falling on a stage in front of like you know what I mean like
That feeling but like as much as it was an awful feeling I think sometimes the best lessons like come from that and it just like it really and it just taught me a lot about like growth and acknowledgement of like ooh like I like sometimes you need to look in the mirror
And like be better and like [ __ ] that that’s good honestly that’s good because that that’s what I always say about cancellations too it’s like sometimes you just like need to hear cuz you don’t maybe know how old were you you were like young I think was like I I was 18
But I don’t know I think I was 18 see when you’re so young too I always feel bad for people like 18 19 cuz that’s like the years you do like say the dumbest stuff and like you just oh my God but also the stuff he was talking
About was like before you were 18 right like it was like way before like I was still I hadn’t dropped out of high school yet so I had to have been a either like eighth grade going into freshman year like just so you’re so young that stuffs on the internet and
Then some guy is doing it like an 18-year-old and I was like oh my God who’s just trying to start out like and it’s cool like I don’t I didn’t know the whole situation really but like I was like oh that must feel so good like for
Me even if like 20 years from now someone apologize for like treating me poorly I’d feel like like relieved almost like wow that’s so nice even if you let things go I was just like really H like this is like insane and like it’s something I never thought I would be
Saying or thinking me saying this is like a f bot is so funny cuz it’s going to get clipped anything serious that’s my favorite about the Halloween episodes though like dressing up and then she gets clipped seriously and it’s like she’s a f um but like I was genuinely
Happy for him like I was just like it seems like he’s just like in such a good place mentally and like I didn’t know what place he was at at that time so I don’t really I don’t have much to say about that but I was like you know I
Always feel like that they’re probably not like at the best place like when people just like come for other creators like that for like kind of no reason you guys were like in separate fields and like the stuff happened like so long ago like you know I kind of feel like they
Almost do that to like especially a guy coming for a girl especially a young girl and like that it’s always kind of like a little ick it’s kind of like why are you doing this and so to me it’s always like maybe they wanted to I don’t
Know I don’t know I had so many points in my career where I was just coming for people left and right for so many different reasons now looking back and like you know what I mean so I mean I could see that I just I don’t know what
Place he was in we talking about this actually on the Hot Topics this week we were saying like you’re you don’t really have beefs with people right like every drama is like centered around you like stuff that you’ve done like tanacon or like those kind of things you know what
I mean it’s never like you’re beefing with people right it’s actually like I’ve never thought about that like a lot of my biggest scandals are just me dumbass you talking about the wine lady like just shut up Dan like oh my God like don’t don’t have that convention like don’t get fake married
Oh my you were so young the convention is like anybody at like 20 or however old you were like be like yeah I would love a Convention of myself like yeah yeah and I was just so spiteful to VidCon I would do anything at that time
Like you will you will see and you were able to do it like most people can’t you know what I mean do it do it in question you did something but I did something for sure I mean I still think that’s like somewhat impressive you know what I
Mean you’re the same way like I could did they I don’t know no one died no one died thank God serious it was like was it Fire Island or something wait did they what happened tell me oh my God wait really oh my God oh my
Gosh I’m so sorry that’s that’s L how excited I am I’m like Kicking and Screaming did bad it’s fine just don’t do it again dude Moses is so real hear either I was oh my gosh okay can you see our shoes or no if you can’t see our
Shoes and for all of the audio listeners I feel really sorry because they are see your SHO can you see her shoes maybe pull your shoes in the middle can you both our hands on our feet maybe a little questionable mine’s far worse than so bad actually yours are good mine
Are but it’s Camp I think it’s you know what I mean I love this new word Camp it’s like when you’re a mess you’re like no you’re Camp love it Ari like gets on gets on my ass like I’ll be like that’s so Camp when you like go to the grocery
Store with like your lash on your face and he’s like that’s not Camp D what is Camp I don’t know do we know what is like the what is the actual definition of camp Camp they had a Met Gala that was Camp yes and no one was Camp
Apparently I remember that no one’s camp and they’re like I’m like I would have I would have got in my CFC uniform I feel like that’s Camp you know what I mean so Camp is that camp right only cuz I just did that magazine cover you saw where I
Was like in a k and like oh it’s camp and I’m like okay is Camp like glamorizing like think Camp is low budget the way I think like buffalo sauce on Gray sweatpants is Camp like but it’s not it’s not but I’m like this
Is so you stain girly I’m oh my God you eat like non messy uh no I’m very messy I get stains on everything I get stains on everything stains on everything a white T-shirt is my worst nightmare oh yeah actually my worst yeah I get stains on literally everything but I don’t
Really eat like sauces so I don’t do I don’t know how I get stains I get like butter and stuff on me and like everything everything butay tan makeup like I’m staining everything always Camp I think your Camp I think your Camp have you been invited to the meala
No you I swear to God I want to like laize her to like have a real like adaptation of who I am you wouldn’t be invited like you are definitely the biggest right now like I feel well you’ve been the biggest for so long right no one’s bigger banging the mic
She like really thinks this it’s so funny no it’s true that’s why I’m like how many times do you want to come on come on every week please like it’s so great this is my Met Gala that’s all I need to say this right now is my a
Bigger influenc than you would you think right now um Addison Ray Charlie demilio Noah Beck Dixie demilio um do you know them you know them you just said you were at a party with all them I heard it when we were glamming you said you were like at a
Party with them yeah we were at oh um this girl tap McCrae have you seen her she makes everyone went to the show how does this song Go Zach sang was there which one Zach sang oh he was there just cuz I saw him on the story okay so she
Had like a little she had a show and I went and like all the little influencers were there and stuff but Olivia Rodrigo was there and I was trying to stalk her down you guys love Olivia Rodrigo too love so much I don’t really know much
About coost loves her he always her I love a Lyricist you know like I just love like you know what I mean like a pot [ __ ] who’s like writing her own [ __ ] she does is she like a Taylor Swift or something very much so like writing
Her own stuff like yeah boys you guys had beef you in liia didn’t you like she had a song right and then you were like dating the guy that she wrote the song about no no no no no you’re missing up timelin the vampire no um uh vampire we
Said on canell who we think it was about who’s my friend okay but not you’re not dating or anything okay but you were like but you were upset about it or no am I getting this wrong okay okay I don’t know I thought you’re so close I hear little bits and pieces like
Olivia rod rgo and she knows I love that she knows everything no and we were trying to like like I’ve never met her or talked to her I’ve talked about her like a lot on canceled and stuff and I like you know how that goes like when
You talk about someone a bunch and you love them but it’s like it’s going to go one of two ways where they like love it or they’re like oh my God can that like crazy ass [ __ ] just shut up about me oh yeah yeah I that’s why I never like talk
To anybody cuz I’m just assuming they don’t want me to talk about them like please don’t we always talking about everyone and yes they’re like stop and they either love it and they’re so down for it or they’re just like what yeah like don’t do that oh but I feel she’s
Probably chill like she probably loves you guys like you guys are the same Vibes and era and I think I hope I don’t know I really don’t know but you didn’t even go up to her cuz I no lla went up to her and like made a Tik to with her
And yeah was like holding her at gunpoint it was not literally she just like was she down to do it she like okay she was super down exactly like Olivia was super super sweet about it but I was like cut the [ __ ] but that’s why like I
Love people like lla who just like do whatever you know what I mean wish it could be that way I know I so embarrassed to ask anyone for anything same that is one thing I’m really bad about and I feel like people wouldn’t know that about you and I cuz I feel
Like they would think we would be the opposite yeah especially cuz I feel like you’re so out there like you’re more out on the scene than I am so I feel like you would just be that person to be like give me a few shots and like I’m a
Little more inclined to ask someone to do something but like I really do like I don’t know like I just feel so bad inconveniencing people like in their own environment and scared of if they like don’t want the association right you know oh my God you were we don’t have to
Say who and we won’t even give any clues but when you were saying there was like an influencer who didn’t like want to be in a video with you and I was just like that’s wild and you said they told you that to your face like oh I can’t be in
A video with you I was like I would be mortified I would just like never leave my house again yeah it was actually it was so it was really crazy it’s like this she’s a huge influencer and we were like out at a party and um she was with
Like all of her friends and all of her friends and I were taking a photo together and they were like asking her to get in it and she was like oh that’s not good for my brand and I was like that’s wild and then she’ll like call me
Blackout drunk and be like what’s the party like where should I go like what and I’m like do you like that was the thing it was very like a lot of people will do that to me where they’re like no I really like you and I want to hang out
With you but I couldn’t be in a photo with you and I’m like that’s grossest that’s the grossest thing I hate that as if they’re like better than you on some level or different brand and also like her brand is not like that squeaky clean
It’s not like she has this like yeah at all I was just like wait that’s so weird it was it did catch me by surprise and I things like that I will just like never forget and it’s so interesting to me like I don’t that one just did catch me
By surprise I don’t know like horrible I feel so bad I’m not saying you have to sit here and like come on the cancel podcast and hold my hand in a roazzi photo but like in the back of a selfie at aarty that people are texting to someone like your Brand’s not that
Serious oh no that’s why those people I’m like ick all the way it’s like it made me sad cuz I like that person and I was like oh my God it’s kind of sad honestly I still like that person though like I’ll watch their content you know like you’re the most forgiving though
You are the most forgiving person I feel like you I think it was on Brooks Vlog you guys got in a fight and then like literally like 5 minutes later she’s like we’re good now I was like wow you guys forgive each other so easily what
Was it even about cuz I watched it like 20 times it was like only like a minute in the Vlog I’m like I can’t even hear you’re in the we cut out like we cut out the like major fight I mean we really like we fight like sisters or like even like a
Toxic relationship sometimes like do that they fight and then they’re like over it you know what I mean exactly like and it’s just you know what I mean things will just like escalate a little too quickly sometimes you know what I mean can you say like general what is
About yeah I mean well we were just fighting over a bunch of of the logistics of like tour like touring with each other it’s people don’t realize that when you tour with someone it’s like close the quarters are you are up each other’s [ __ ] like 247 and
You’re like living out your day and like we we just couldn’t be more opposite on the way that we would want to do things like in Brooks Ideal World she’s at the venue an hour early and in my ideal world I’m at the venue in the literal
Minute I have to be there which is going to stress her out and then it’s like and then the way we just Express things like emotionally is also very different like I’ll more like want you know like to converse about it in Brooks you know a little more like high energy about it
Like you know what I mean and like so just trying to like work things out like that and like figure out like how are we going to do this as a unit like it’s it’s literally like a like a marriage like we have to like compromise on so
Many things of the way that we both are and get to that 50/50 and you know what I mean and so just in the beginning of tour it was a lot of us like butting heads and whatever and that day it ended up just being so funny cuz that day it
Was like Brooke was like annoyed at me and I was annoyed at her over a bunch of tour Logistics that are now like worked out but she kept taking out her annoyance On Me by making jokes about the shorts I was wearing they were like
Jean shorts like JS was okay I was like wait what the dorts and and it’s so funny because I always clown like my friends for being like take a joke cuz we’re all very like hard-headed like just like you even just see the way we interact like we like come for each
Other’s necks and it’s funny so like I never I never get mad about [ __ ] like that but it was like the first time maybe literally ever i’ ever I was like if you make one more comment about about mying JS [ __ ] like we like we almost
Killed each other right so it was just like a Tipping Point yeah and then just later that night we were like honestly this is so funny like we just have to talk about it like let’s just podcast about it and it was and then we just worked out all the tour Logistics and
Now things are like pretty good and and okay so it wasn’t that serious cuz I read the comments cuz they’re trying to figure out what happened and everyone just like I can’t believe Tana would say that to her and I like wait what did you even say we were literally texting about
It last night we were like damn like people you know what I mean and then there were so many too that were just like nice and like they get the sisterly vibe like just you know what I mean like it wasn’t even posted it and stuff and
You guys were fine so I was like obviously she posting it like exactly like if it was reallying serious it would never have made it to a vlog like we’re calling it Jorts gate for Christ sake if it was a serious like yeah you know what I mean it like it started as
Something a little serious like work-wise but then we just worked it out and I love it in the middle of the fight you even like cuz you were like off camera and then you like come into camera to be like saying you said something and I was just like oh well
She can’t be that matter she’s like in the Vlog I would been like tearing the camera off or yeah know we had a full videographer us the entire time we’re shoting like a tour documentary so the full fight will be aired are you going to try and sell it to like Netflix or
Something the goal is to try and sell it but I feel like knowing me I’m going to get picked up by like tuby or peacock at the most I tu’s A vibe rightly suddenly they had the movie about Amber herd and Johnny Depp like 3 months after was out
Did you see that saw actors are playing them no it’s so bad it came out like three months after the trial it’s like the worst movie you’ve ever seen who’s playing Amber herd like random people they’re kind of good the way would for that it was everything no it
Was like literally so quick such a quick turn around and it’s on tuby I think yeah wait we suddenly we I’m not even kidding you tuby if you’re watching listening seriously please you should you probably get on Netflix I feel like they buy documentaries I feel they do I
Don’t know I don’t even know I I would love that just like on a billboard is it like the drama of the tour is it like good you’re just like me for real I love a billboard I love a Billard have a billboard all the Spotify [ __ ] get
Like boards they always get Billboards yeah I was like how are you ever just driving down Sunset and you see some random a [ __ ] that you like know like influencer type [ __ ] on like a billboard and you’re just like God damn it yeah like why isn’t that me well
You’ve had Billboards you’ve been there but we both have you bought a billboard for I bought a billboard for myself as well wait for what when I turned 21 I bought the a billboard on MTV did that you did that no um MTV did do they did
Ones but they were different ones I bought a [ __ ] one I love the buying the bill I did too I had like chicken fingers on mine I just put like my Trish pis oh my literally same all mine said was tan turns 21 had my ass in the air
Was it on suns yeah it was on Sunset and it was AC a street from my favorite Nightclub at the time so I like thought it was so funny that like if anyone like hated me and they went to the club and as they were leaving like would that I
Did that too I had one of me and Fabio set up next to like someone I used to date and I was just like oh now you have to see me every day no it’s so and it was me and Fabio like in bed it is so
It’s great buy a Bard underrated they got more expensive though yeah cuz it used to only be like 5,000 right so even know so much more like 20,000 25,000 30,000 during quarantine we looked to buy a billboard and I remember it was like 20,000 I was like okay that’s a
Little much they’re so pricey now I wanted to do it for something I don’t remember so expensive and I was like this is such a funny out of touch conversation like no one relates to it at all I feel like people don’t know you can buy Billboards cuz you would see
People on billboards like wow how can they do that and I feel like people don’t understand that you should buy you bu a billboard guy literally like just like People magazine you can like buy like um like placement like for your engagement photos I always see people
Engaged in people and i’ be like people doesn’t care and they just like pay for it so really only people does that I think everything else you can like um maybe pay for anything actually probably not like vote or something but I think you can pay for any publicity yeah you
Can pay for a lot of magazines I know a lot of girls in La who do that yeah I’ve never done it but maybe I should I know honestly we’re just in fbot costumes in a magazine next month mind your business mind your business if you see that you
Can you can be on like Vogue Dubai or something and you can buy that cover I’m buying the cover duai tomorrow literally not kidding that would be everything that’s so in oh my God we should do it I’ve seen girls do it like just random girls and I’m just like wow that’s so
Cool and because I my Glam people had told me they’re like oh yeah you can just like buy those covers and I was like oh that’s so cool do it you and me I don’t know for what but we just need to do it what do we dress as just like
Little like I guess you don’t have to dress like you’re in Dubai imagine we’re like so sophisticated that’s even funnier like turtlenecks and all yeah like B we’re on to something it’s still Brewing but the idea is there I look horrible on a turtleneck cuz I have such
A big head so I’m just like pop out so do I I just like to be a [ __ ] yeah it’s just better to show off your body I haven’t sh off my body in like literally so long I get I get so like when we were
Doing pictures like oh my God I don’t know about this no I’m obsessed I’m not even kidding you look amazing I used to love being sexy IED love dressing sexy all the time and I don’t know like something hits you I think maybe after 30 where just like really yeah where
You’re like maybe I’m not maybe not 30 maybe maybe my age 35 like I’m so surprised that you think that way though because you’re literally so hot I get so self-conscious I don’t know I feel so sorry for everyone who loves you and hasn’t met you in person oh my gosh I’m
Not I’m literally actually not even kidding I always think people would be disappointed because I think people think of me as one way and I’m like don’t you agree it’s like everything like meeting her in person really it’s just it’s so well your guys’s energy
Brings it out but I can be like super quiet and people always think like it’s something wrong or something like that like people life yeah cuz I get really like kind of like you I get like a little paranoid like when I go to Target
When I go anywhere so I can be a little stand offish especially when people first say hi to me I’m very like hi like I’m very because I gu that’s true we have like a mutual Trust of knowing that like we can tell each other tea and have
The same amount to lose as well and like and we love each other but I’m just saying we’re so paranoid that like you need that too at first yeah and you’re like the one person too like that I you’ve been through so much so many SC scandals cancellations all stuff like
That and it’s always like she says it like this I you to say it I think like cancellations is kind of like it’s a stupid term like I get it like you said like I kind of loved being like canceled cuz I can like grow from it but like
It’s not like a real term like there’s some people is like awful like did you hear the sniper wol situation no tell me wait what what’s the tea she docks to Jack’s films she like showed up to his house did you guys not hear this wait
What this was our hot topic of I love that you’re I will just say I have definitely hid an accidental docks a couple times in my career by accident no this definitely wasn’t accidental she’s like filming outside his house and was like Hey guys pulling up to Jack film’s
House like what should I do cuz they have like beef I guess which I did not know either but he’s been making videos about her for the past year saying she steals content you know sniper you know sniper and you know Jack’s films yes okay so I didn’t even know they had this
Beef but it was this crazy thing it’s been beef she she’s called him a stalker in the past all stuff like that cuz he makes so many videos about her calling someone a stalker and then showing up to their house is so funny some [ __ ] I
Would do that’s some [ __ ] I would do to my own damn stalker I can’t believe you heard that and then when she got caught she did she called him like a freak she was this freak or whatever I’m just like girl you like showed up to the house and
Anyways I guess we looked it up doxing illegal in La like you can’t just show up to someone El or to California and it’s also against like YouTube service so right now he’s trying to get her channel to peing out but you know sniper W is like the biggest YouTuber like she
Gets like 3 million views a video and she makes that AdSense bank and they promote her and I think all the stuff like that so it’s like this big thing right now where it’s like why isn’t she getting demonetized cuz she like and it wasn’t it wasn’t accidental it was
Literally like I’m outside his house like should we talk like come talk like adults like so can we have our monetization back please thank you yeah YouTube kind of promotes you too like when you’ve done like VidCon and stuff they kind of promote you right like I’ve always had like a decent relationship
With YouTube Awards streamy like all of that stuff i’ like Susan the [ __ ] CEO she always been so nice to me like all that type of [ __ ] but I am just my name I think is like Perma Perma red flog that’s so bizarre and also because you
Do get a lot of views on your podcast that’s actually really bizarre it’s so weird it is kind of crazy I’m lucky like the people who want to listen are listening cuz like I don’t know how often we’re getting like right and you get like brand deals likeing with other
Stuff but it is weird I always thought that too cuz I was like wow that’s so odd like just these and so like with the Jeff one too we’re just like okay we’ll just like censor it and then it was like completely censored and anyways doesn’t
Matter you’re a good time I like yeah I have fun I have a great that’s what’s more important I think too it’s just to be like you know it’s better to be entertaining than censored oh to be [ __ ] monetized it’d be crazy I wasn’t like cuz you were too in like the
Beginning before like the ad sents like apocalypse right monetized yeah oh yeah I used to make so much off AdSense and then but mine wasn’t I don’t think I got hit by the I think maybe I get hit because I don’t get demonetized I just
Don’t give you so I get like no money there’s oh but you get monetized yeah damn I ever I will occasionally demonetize knock on wood I don’t ever that’s not wood wait what’s wood I don’t know this is oh my Carpenter but I’ve never like cuz that’s like a serious thing if they
Demonetize you like I wonder why you got Dem it’s it really is like I dead ass think like my name like the way they demonetize words like like 10 emotionals on that same list really oh my God I didn’t know I had no idea that’s could
That could be a very real thing cuz like they changed the you know terms of service way back when ad pack up so I started changing my content and I deleted a lot too yeah I don’t know cuz I know you used to do wild ones too like
The toothbrush on oh my God old were you in that video can we just talk about this TR I just made a Tik Tok about this the other day but like no oneing saw it of course it’s like whenever I want people to see a Tik Tok that’s never the
One that’s going to like get the views you know what I mean I the toothbrush thing will forever live with me like I swear to God right now like like at least once a month someone’s going to come up to me and they’re going to be like he [ __ ] me with a toothbrush
Right they’re going to quote that video and so many people think that that’s what happened like someone me with a toothbrush right the entire YouTube video is me telling a story about how a guy in high school spread a rumor that he me with a toothbrush and he didn’t
Right and so it’s like I made this whole video to try to like Empower women and be like listen like one day you can take your narrative back like if a rumor spread about you and then he just got me [ __ ] wanted tfold now for the next
Decade people are going to say that to me it’s not I just I just gave uptic that’s with the toothbrush I’m just going to start I’m I’m going along with it it’s so good cuz like it’s just that like you screaming it is just so ingrained everyone’s like bra and it’s
Like I wore a red lip that day if I could go back in time and change one thing about that I would have wore a nude lip weit why red lip looks so good on you I love when you wear a red lip really yes I think it looks so good on
You you were you young though you were young I’m going to start letting her get in my head and I swear to God I’m going to be doing it she’s so very few people can pull off her lip I think you look so good with it that’s crazy cuz did you
Wear one you wee one before like H were you Mar know this I know I’m to recall everything usually know I’m like wait I remember you said this was I was like boof Marilyn last last year like I didn’t really like do it like you know
Yeah you just like go all out like I just bought like a little party city dress and like curled my hair and were you going to a party yeah jefff and I went out as maryn and JFK I originally wanted to be a [ __ ] president like I
Wanted to be [ __ ] JFK how would you do that like JFK mask like American flag to a party okay I love that and then I was like I just felt like it just was screaming cancellation for some reason I think if like the president’s like dead it’s okay wait really cuz everyone was
Telling me that it was like I don’t know it’s just like two brain cells bonking off a wall like no one knows um But like everyone was saying because of like his death like they were saying like doing a live president and that would be fine oh
Yeah maybe because of the way he died I feel like if they died of old age I have no idea I’m honestly the worst ass when it comes to being respectful like I don’t know like I just don’t do things cuz I’m like so funny because everyone
That’s like like I wanted to be something else for Halloween a couple days ago and I couldn’t decide if it was like cancelable like um I wanted to be Michael Jackson but I didn’t know if that’s like if I could be Michael Jackson or not like are you carrying a
Baby with you or is just Michael Jackson like are you going to dangle a baby no baby that’s hilarious though see I’m [ __ ] funny it got canceled I did it on my balcony cuz I just thought it was kind of funny like not myib a
Doll and people canel me for a doll I me it’s a doll okay if it was Malibu that be while wait see and I think [ __ ] like that I love like a rogue iconic cancel me I’m sorry whatever it’s memorable it didn’t this baby didn’t get hurt you
Know what I mean but he did it with a real baby right well but then again it’s like people okay okay okay okay but what were go what Michael Jackson were you going to be I don’t I don’t even know I just can’t stop doing that thing where
You go on your tippy toes and put your hand on your head like I can’t stop like like grabbing my crotch I can’t stop like imitating Michael Jackson I don’t why Why That’s So Random all of a sudden were you a fan when he was alive no I
Mean sure but not really not like a super fan no not at all I just it’s like my weird little like I just I just get these weird little like like that I love doing I used to go to Michael Jackson’s house I talk about it all the time like
I used to like stalk him and I think that’s why people were coming to my house condemning Sniper Wolf 2 minutes later I was like nine but still yeah but trust me I got my like Karma cuz people used to show up to my house I was like
Okay this is awful yeah would like Neverland Ranch leave us like yeah we would like stay outside his house but it was like really guarded it was like there’s no way that’s so fun though yeah cuz people said he would come out and like say hi to people but like and as
Like a 9-year-old like you’re just like dreaming you’re so excited yeah it was cool we did get to meet him like a couple and I loved Michael Jackson I really you met Michael Jackson what was he like nice like just really nice like
I I was young I was like nine so I don’t remember too much I you yeah well I wanted to marry him so I thought maybe he would like you know want me but I don’t know I don’t think he wanted me as a f bot I keep foret this get can like
Hey but I love your Michael Jackson ear you don’t know what outfit you’re to wear say that um the tiptoes might be like like want to be starting something like tiptoes was that like through off the wall or something what’s a tip toes I don’t I really don’t know but I was
Like trying to think if it was like I didn’t know if it was a scandal or not and I was like I was like who do I call cuz you like most people call their other influencer friends and I’m like I would call Trisha or Jeff both would
Tell me to do it oh would Jeff tell you to do it oh for sure he’s like worse than us like he’s who [ __ ] cares if you get canceled do what you want like but I feel like Jeff has like does he have just like a lot of money from
Something that he doesn’t care like about life no I feel like he didn’t has like so much money doesn’t care anything like he has a good amount of money but like every time he puts this card into like an ATM I’m like looking too oh do
You know do you know what he showed someone Sophia he showed his bank account too I didn’t watch it but it’s said like thumbil I didn’t see that I don’t know I don’t actually know like what’s literally sitting in there but I want to know what’s in his account I
Want to know what’s in everyone’s B account I think he’s just as like kind of like us like you obviously you and I have said we have much more to live for now and I think he does as well but like a part of that mentality never goes away
When you were like a it who cares like I don’t give a li or die like they I feel like there will always be a part of you in inside that can like channel that energy totally you know what I mean and I feel like it’s like the same Vibes
He’s just like yeah well it’s just interesting cuz I was like he seems he also seems older like when I when he was here I was like he seems kind of like older just like the way he is you know like his Vibe everything but he’s not
Going to dress up with you this year I’m I’m getting close to the convincing is actually crazy like I have this man at gunpoint but it’s like that’s the thing is that’s always my life like it it’s just me every year convincing straight men to do the craziest [ __ ] for
Halloween the fact that you can get these guys to do it you’re like the Ariana Grande of like Halloween costumes like you can get men to do whatever you they want you know what I mean if they don’t want to do it you can make it
Happen but I I can’t I’ve been trying so hard to get him to do roller skating Barbie but I I honest to God think his like and good for him for finally putting his foot down you know no I’m serious like like I think this is the
First time he’s ever been like I am not doing that he is going to do the fur the fur one I get it so which one would you be cuz like fur Co Ken doesn’t really have a Barbie I know that’s what see I was literally just saying this you get
Me the cowboy outfits go together the rollerblade outfits go together I know it’s so hard but you really need to be bar the thing is is I feel like I could get some other like Tik Tok boy to do any of them but it’s like I feel like
The people want me and Jeff to do something that I would almost rather forsake the roller skating for like you know what I mean wait it out I weigh out the cloud I weigh out that like what how can we what’s the plan how do you convince him like what’s your tactic oh
Just Relentless I won’t shut the [ __ ] up about it every gasl manipulating tactic you can possibly think of meals for a month or something like that I I feel like it’s more just like really like I would do anything for you and you won’t even do this for me like but then he’ll
Be like you’re gaslighting me and I’m like what I think that’s more like manipulating or something yeah both all I don’t know I don’t know these terms I’m really bad with it I’m trying at all I was definitely trying to Gaslight him into it like a couple weeks ago and he
Was like you’re literally gaslighting me right now gas lighting is like when something didn’t happen and you’re telling someone it did I could be wrong me not even knowing what it means is crazy right is that right I don’t know but like there is like no you’re like
There’s like a specific I always thought guas lighting was when you tell someone like that didn’t happen and then you’re like like you’re telling a story like that never happened but it did oh [ __ ] emotional blackmail I don’t use that term enough yeah new one unlock but you
Going even have time cuz your your days are all booked with shoots like dude October’s just nuts and you know how it is like I think people don’t realize we were talking about this earlier but like Paige was equating this to like literally a wedding day the way
Halloween is it’s like six hours in hair and makeup and like I’m booking all these sets and people to dress up with me and props and I want my stylist and everyone to the exact matches and then if you can’t like the photoshopping people it’s like I really take it
Seriously and now people just expect that of me and it’s like adding all of that on top of a regular schedule October is we always say like the end products are so fun like this is so fun so like I live for this moment right now
But like getting to do it all it’s always just the month is like it’s hell like you don’t sleep and it’s just 12-hour days of me trying to like do my regular schedule and like November 1st like I’m going to breathe so hard yeah until like the the next thing then
You’re like I got to do this cuz have another tour coming you’ll do something where it’s like something busy but October’s crazy cuz it’s like I’m touring and do like it’s just it’s unmatch and cuz before you came here you did a photo shoot you said you did like
Kim and Paris or something where were you at a like in a garage or yeah we went to a parking garage called the papazzi that’s just wild well it’s people don’t I did not know about like wig life yeah you were say you never wear like a wig girlly like I did not
Realize how like you just like see a a Jenner in a wig and you’re like that’s so it takes [ __ ] hours and hours and hours and it’s like once you have it on like you don’t want to have to put it back on and glue it on and the make up
And the spray T around it’s like this whole and the last thing I needed was another fake [ __ ] like sector unlocked like I I could have gone my whole life without now wanting to be aing wig girl and um but it’ll save your hair you’re talking about your hair honestly It’ll
Like save your hair like you just wear wigs forever cuz that’s what I had to do and it’s they’re amazing and they’re great because they just braid your hair just like ask for them to not braid it so tight cuz like you were saying like
Some are so like rough with the braids I just say like just do two braids even if it’s bumpy I don’t care you know what I mean like it’s almost better for your hair but wigs are life changing so you did that today and then last night you
Went to just a photo shoot I thought you went to a party no I would have there was just nothing going on I love to pop out on my little Halloween costumes but and I’m was so tired I’m Grandma mode this year I don’t think I’m going to be
The same tan I’ve this we have a big party this Friday which I wishing a party and then yeah there are a few I’ll goto but are you hosting you’re hosting it at your house not at my house house thank God yeah that’s a while trying to
Get people out I’m trying to get people out and I just don’t like people all in my like stuff my house is kind of like yours especially like my room and like all that type of stuff like I have a lot of my [ __ ] everywhere and I just like
I’ve caught people at parties trying to steal everything possible from me like so many times like random people it’s so scary yeah um so I’m throwing it at my friend’s house he’s like it’s actually the funniest situation I should tell you all about this this guy is he’s like
This Russian like billionaire and like I don’t know him from Adam or Eve right I like obviously yes random Paparazzi moments were always grateful for but like when you really want to have a moment you know there are certain people that you call and that you work with and
Certain you know agencies and whatever and I became really good friends with this Paparazzi his name is Frank and so we’ll work together and just we’re good friends and um Frank posts me a lot on his page and this Russian billionaire guy reaches out to Frank and he’s like
Like he he just like wants to live the life like he want wants to like not in like a romantic way though not the 21-year-old you said they were like 21-year old billionaire I don’t think he’s a billionaire we’ll find out okay no he’s not he’s definitely not just
Really rich God you get so many rich men so don’t I’ll break there’s always a catch with me that’s the thing it’s not like like I’m like a super model I’m just like oh no there’s always a catch um so he’s Russian and he doesn’t want
To date you he just wants want to like be famous I don’t want to say that in like a negative way cuz I appreciate people kind of own it he’s like I just want the connections a lot people do like I just you know what I mean like I
Want to meet people I want to like put my foot in the door and like the Hollywood scene like whatever and I made a Tik Tok about this and all the comments were like you can just say you’re an escort and I’m like I literally would it’s less words it be
Way easier it’s kind of flex like getting paid like and so he just wants he wants the life and you know whatever so he he was like you know like we just worked out the business deal and I’m throwing a party business deal does he pay
You can I can I say that can I say that no one knows who it is right I know I’m just scared he would see it are off camera I think he’s I don’t think it’s bad like he pays you I love that first of all I don’t think that’s weird I had
I had a similar situation they only gave me $500 mon but it was similar I was like yeah and I was like and I didn’t do anything either I just like went to clubs with them I was like 18 or whatever and and they just like yeah
Like a lot of people just want to like meet people in Hollywood or whatever and that’s so yeah so he wanted me to throw a party at his house and invite everyone I know and he has this beautiful house The Beatles used to live there he’s neighbors with like Leonardo DiCaprio
Like right it’s insane I’m like what do you want to do with me that’s crazy so like do you hang out with him or we’ll hang out we like get dinners and we like do stuff and you know what I mean like he’s really shy and just like we just
You know can I ask her how old he is oh my God he’s young too I really and he’s the sweetest guy and I love him and I am excited to like put him in more of my content cuz I think people will be like really interested in him so he
Doesn’t mind oh he wants to be in your content think so oh my God you have them on canell oh my God so funny so funny I have so many question very few words like you know what I mean is it cuz he’s Russian or just cuz he doesn’t like to
Talk I think uh I think maybe Russian more so you need to learn Russian suddenly oh my God that’s a funny new plot for me du lingo Tana unlock oh my God first of all learning a language is actually easier than you think especially like Russian I feel like I
Learned Hebrew in like a summer in like six weeks you know what I mean and then you can just say like the important things yeah how did you learn it um I just went to like a Hebrew College online I just like literally went and they have zoom classes and
Everyone just like Zooms in and you’re like yeah you’re just like money my M away oh my God that’s so funny yeah it was actually everything I like learned it so so you could learn it so fast oh my God and I would just love to cuss
Someone out and like rushing oh yeah that would hot so what are your costumes you have planned coming up I want to hear all of yours too might kind of over I mean I only have like a few more costumes left I feel like I kind of did
All my what was wait what did you just tell me earlier that you’re doing with you and Moses and we’re doing the idol this weekend which scene which I’m like I tell everyone to go watch this show everyone tells me I would love it and like people keep also saying to me like
It’s your life and it’s just like a bunch of people like on drugs in Hollywood I’m like great it’s about like a sweet girl well she seems sweet and yeah and then there’s like drugs and lots of sex and it’s very it’s very sexual which I like she’s like a pop
Star she has her pop star moment so like we think we can relate to that because you had our pop star but you never did like pop songs right you just did like rapping no I did one pop song and I some rap oh I did two pop songs [ __ ]
For that she knows way too much cuz I remember seeing that video I like wow this is a Rebrand for you because it was just was like in Malibu I really I tried I tried the music [ __ ] for money though like I was like that was wild to me so
You did that to make money I made zero I lost so much money how did you make money just from sales mostly like yeah like streams and sales and like it’s amazing just I mean I toured music as well oh so you music videos are expensive as they’re so expensive your W
One was everything I watched it the other day but even that was a lot of like finesse like the Hefner music video people always ask me like what was the budget for that but it was like we found a guy who had that house who wanted publicity Hunter had was still working
At an at ICM like at an agency at the time and wanted to be a videographer so it was kind of me being like I believe in you let’s do it and like he just happened to be the most talented ever and like Bella Thorne just wanted to
Come be in the video and like wild it just like I would always try to like finesse it you know what I mean yeah that was your biggest right yeah like how many streams do you know how many streams it has I don’t know Trisha but
You just made like of m 40 million like something crazy I don’t even know if I have a million streams no you definitely do you definitely do 40 million that’s like literally like Megan Trainer status I feel like that’s crazy not Megan Trainer status I feel like she had 40
Million or something she has so no she’s like a Platinum Platinum Platinum Platinum r a lot and maybe I’m making that up like it’s somewhere I think near there but like wow um it made me want to continue for a while but music’s also hard you mean like you just didn’t enjoy
The process of it get being in the studio like people really like don’t talk about that enough well also we both were saying we’re very offbeat like no rhythm when you were in the oh my God we we just we have so so many little niche
Things in common and it’s so funny that being one of them like I couldn’t clap along to happy birthday what were we doing the I’m in the club we be like Tik Tok sound and it’s literally just moving your fingers to the be and both of us
Could not do it like gun to our head we we watching a Mario Beach do like I don’t think I can do that that look so complicated so hard is I’ve never danced on Tik Tok I have no rhythm like and we tried to do it the first time like you
Know what you don’t even need to do the hands don’t worry about it off literally couldn’t do it all like so that’s what’s hard for me in the in the studio they have to like do like a countdown like a three two because you know most people
Can hear when they’re about to come in I can never hear when I’m about to come in they have to like point to me like same same same every single time they’ve have to point to me every single time people like know when to come in and I always
Would date like music boys and so then they just be sitting like babe what don’t you get you know what I mean and it’s funny cuz Chris Miles when we were dating I had him several times like he would lay down the track for me like he
Would go in there and like sing it and rap it like me and it’s so funny cuz the lyrics would be like my [ __ ] this like whatever and like he like he was such a sport for like and then his voice would go up like yours too so match it yeah
Well then I would go in and try to like emulate that Melody because like I wouldn’t be on the oh I can never do that either I have a guy named Jeremy who does it for me but like I can never like I don’t even know how a melody
Works like I’m just how did you create that it was so hard for me to figure out and like just so like Monson would make me go in the corner face the corner like no one not in like a mean way just in like and I would like be singing in the
Corner like just like on no beat and then he would like put it to the music which they done that too where they fly it in like I could never catch it they’re like we’ll just we’ll just move it around literally we don’t even need the song right now she’s not going life
Is like the idol oh my God that’s so like the Idol because so my son would be like the weekend and you’d be like Lily rosed up cuz she was like a PO way like like more disgusting and both of us me and M no I don’t know this
This show was like critique for being so disgusting like it was like and he would like hit her with like the brush that her mom used to abuse her with to like get her yeah oh that’s crazy he was never yeah no beating accusations the like Corner thing that kind of made me
Think of it cuz he would like humiliate her to like get her to sing better watch this tonight I love up [ __ ] oh it’s yeah cuz people kind of came for him being like it’s massyn to me it’s like when it’s like obviously that’s wrong in like
Real life but when it’s something like art and like stuff like that like you know yeah because it also I won’t give spoilers but there’s a big twist you know where you’re just like wa like at the end you’re like I didn’t see that coming so anyways I just feel like I’m
Watching it tonight yeah it’s like we watched Rich St a gr on Valentine’s Day cuz I wanted to feel I was like let me just get like in the mood or something like that you know but I didn’t get in the mood but the weekend oh my God the
Idol I was like hot sex scenes crazy I was like blushing I couldn’t even watch it with like Moses almost cuz I was like this I kept laughing and saying ew this is so cringe cuz I was so embarrassed watching it with him like being like I’m
So horny and like this is like so embarrassing like that too oh my God I was like E I hate this and then I was like he would make food like a big ass lasagna like I can’t eat this like I’m watching someone have oh my God I’m the
Same way it’s like a hot show you want to be like hot and like cute oh he’d always like make p we going to watch the Kardashians I’m like they’re so skinny I’m not eating they’re shaking their salad and it’s like ravioli me always me every time that was so meari he’s like
Dying laughing cuz it’s so true I’ve never met anyone else that felt that way cuz it’s like they’re not looking at you they’re not seeing they’re not the room they never will be in the room but it’s like it makes me want to like cuz you and I are so
Like oh my God like what’s the word like easily influenced almost watch their salad and we’re like I go and get it the next day I’m like I need it like anything I see anything I watch I go get it right away I I’m the exact same way
Lally like the BGA earrings you girls were wearing I bought them I’m like Brook I love you so anything you have I’m like let me just buy that like I always copy people like but we just have the same taste which I like love I was just we’re talking about this off camera
And I don’t mean to bring it up again wait what is it stop talking about calling stop I I’m not trying to bring it up I promise I’m not trying to bring it up I’m like off camera we I was like I I just asked her like I was dead ass like
What the would yall talk about because I’m seeing Stars I’m like sweating oh but like we dressed up in costume and we’re doing a podcast so it’s very it it was like the old the three episodes like your photographer like you were saying you hired him because he was Pamela
Anderson’s photographer like back in the day literally last night Amari was like Tana are you going to dress up as Pamela again this year she’s going to send you a [ __ ] ceas and assist if you do and I just like so many little intricacies you and I like love the same things like
2000 stuff The Playboy of it all like just all that type of [ __ ] so I was just like clowning off camera cuz I was like what would you [ __ ] talk about with her yeah well like I told I mean I’ve said this and I told you it’s like I
Mean we just were not friend and not like not because she got canceled we just like weren’t friends I mean there just evidence of that like I was never in Miranda videos I was never invited like I probably saw her twice before I had my baby and then when I had my baby
I was like okay I need to talk about being a mom so I was like okay let me so we like talked about that and that was it but there was there was not it was it was difficult it was and sometimes that works like the like dichotomy of like oh
We have nothing in common so this can be funny but I just like but I don’t think that was where it was I don’t think that one had the chist I was just trying I was trying to do something and I I really didn’t know how to do one on my
Own and because she had a podcast I kind of was like well this kind of makes sense show me the ropes yeah that makes sense and so I kind of also was just like more like also I need I didn’t know how to get ads so she did and she’s like
Oh we can you know get ads then she’s like well maybe not with mine cuz I don’t want to get like canceled with you and I was like okay that is just such a like the people not want to get canceled it’s like oh my God yeah always like
Crazy to me cuz I was just like oh okay like that’s a weird like fear to have but then you manifest your fears that’s what I really like my God time you’re really negative thinking I have really like we were also just saying this off camera but um just
In general but like people that are um so paranoid like I over the years like I look back and all the people that I’ve like seen that are were so paranoid about like I don’t want to be next to you and get canceled or the people that
Ended up having like [ __ ] in their closet always always and you’re just like okay so I might say some outspoken [ __ ] but I’m Not Afraid like I’m an open book same I never I’m like all everything’s out there there’s nothing nothing else that I’ve done in my past
That could be out there that would like cancel me at this point cuz like everything’s out there it’s but people like project almost when they like say that kind of stuff you know what I mean cuz they have their own skeletons or their own thing that was what I was
Looking for skeletons in the closet I saw SK over there so I saw I was like there’s a little skeleton over there do you know what I want to ask you about what I want to ask you there’s a famous clip of you the clip of you where you’re
Being asked about what does she say she says like correct but what are they asking her about oh oh and then like center of the earth what was it the center of the earth what’s the the thinnest layer of the Earth they’re like the thinnest layer of the Earth and then
You were like repeat the question and they were like the thinnest layer of the Earth and you were like the thinnest layer of the Earth and they were like correct and then you were like oh thank you like I got a point right oh I just like you you play it off
Like you are playing like like oh I’m playing ditsy I’m playing dumb but broe and I had this entire introspective conversation about how intelligent you have to be to make that joke how quick you have to be to for someone to say correct and then to immediately like oh
I got a point like that’s so funny I think I get lucky cuz sometimes like I can be but it’s it’s definitely luck like I’m not I’m not like a standup like I can’t like make jokes on purpose like I can’t try to be funny but I think that
Is like like a standup like it is in a way like making jokes on purpose it is like it’s so intelligent to be able to like I like you already know I’m obsessed with mastering the dumb blonde bit and I play into it so much and but
Like just I just hope I mean everyone who’s a San of you definitely does realize like how ENT you are but like how intelligent you have to be to do that that well and like you know what I mean like it’s funny cuz it’s like you
Know I mean thank you for that so nice it’s always to me the best compliment is when people like still don’t know you know they still like people will be like wait but she was joking on that right like you know it’s always funny to me and sometimes I’m like even with Moses
Some this is how loss I get in a character sometimes like I don’t even know if I was Is that real like sometimes I don’t even know what’s real like because sometimes I’m not smart like I’m telling you the gravity thing like I really just in general like
Gravity confuses oh no what confuses climate change change confuses me do you know climate change [ __ ] do you oh my God if you ever want to do an episode if you ever want to do an episode where we someone just asked us questions like that I think it would be the funniest
Episode of all time I think we’re like emotionally intelligent but when it comes to [ __ ] like that yeah I don’t know [ __ ] that’s what I’m saying like there’s times where I’m generally like people like think it’s so funny and so I play into it cuz but I generally have no
Idea what climate change is I have noing clue about at all like when they say what is it global warming I’m always just like what what is what is cuz it’s about glaciers no it’s not yes it is GL wor but when they cool off the
World that’s what I thought too so why is it called We’re scared of global warming right we’re scared of it yeah but if there’s glaciers why are we scared of it that’s exactly I don’t know I always think it’s going to be way when we’re gone but then
Be like you’re children I’m like I don’t know we’ll be dead so I don’t know right when global warming takes over we’re gone I’m so for real what is global warming do you want to fill us Moes has his microphone over there I I should never asked him cuz I just like
Not knowing I guess and it’s funny cuz we’re going to stare at them the whole time we’re both going to go oh and then still not like no idea this idea that the Earth is warming up so the Glaciers are melting and then there’s more water
So the ocean will rise okay very Moses of you very the water water but like Oceans Rise that’s from Hamilton Oceans Rise Empires fall we have SE each other through it all but like how is the worth get Earth getting wow how is the Earth getting warmer because we have so many
Car and no they claim that we make it warmer Paige is saying ozone you’re saying we’re making it warmer ozone is old like there used to be a whole we fixed that we’re all just guessing ozone pollution You said cars like cars the Caron footprint for
Yeah okay you said said cars but I don’t think I said cars I think someone else said cars I don’t know [ __ ] I was like oh cars I said that I don’t know it’s so confusing I know leard Caprio feels strongly about global warming flying jets all over the world does while he’s
Flying jets all over the world isn’t that it’s so funny like yeah like I was about to just come for Leonardo Deca like he’s fine you might see him at your party this weekend cuz your neighbor is with him I think I’m too old yeah you are wait yes 25 25 is I
Thought it was like 24 what think when they turn 25 he stops dating them so oh wow God damn it I miss my is that crazy you are too old for him yeah wild wild it’s crazy who have you gotten flown out by who’s the craziest person
You’ve gotten flown out by I actually don’t get flown out a lot nor do I like to okay you don’t like it like is FL not mean you have to hook up with them or they just like hang out I think that it it depends on the person like they’re
Like a good person and you connect and you catch a Vibe maybe like a a nice guy but like athletes and [ __ ] like they would they just want to you right and Drake too like he flies out girls does he just want to have sex with them for
Sure really I was just thought like cuz some girls would say we’re just friends I’m like God not that I wouldn’t Drake you would I I’m a weekend girly if I was single I I’m a drake girly I don’t know I I think Drake is so
Hot I feel like his he has as a fot like I’m never getting [ __ ] by Drake I keep forgetting wait that’s so weird cuz I feel like his standards are like low not that you know what I mean like his standards are so low I feel like you’re
So high caliber I know that’s Drake is hot as no I’ve seen some girls that talk about it that like not but not like in a bad way like I kind of love like Usher too he’s definitely HED up with some just imagine that it’s like think about
Their their life you know what I mean like he’s just on the road every night like sometimes it’s just like you get an ugly yeah he probably just you get an ugly I think that’s more endearing cuz for people like me I’m like oh I could
Have a chance like Usher he had a lot humanizes them yes for sure and when I saw the girls that like were suing him for giving them herpes or something else it’s like oh it kind of gives me hope because they nothing they were attracted they’re just not like tens that you
Would think and I was like oh like well it’s also like I feel like it’s just you see this so much with people that become so famous where it’s like to guys like that I feel like [ __ ] is just like another drug they do like a pill or a
Bump or whatever like they just become so desensitized to like the body attached to like you know what I mean yeah I think Drake said that too I think he I think in the Bobby alov podcast I think he said something where he was like he doesn’t want to settle down
Because he just wants to like live life and be with a girl all the time like different girls like eventually he probably doesn’t even know how like he could literally be with all the baddest [ __ ] in the world and would probably still cheat because of the like didn’t
She Jay-Z cheat on Beyonce right that’s like whole thing that what like lemon which is like insane to me so it’s like at that level like if Beyonce is being cheated on it’s like like every famous guy just cheats I think I think everyone’s going to cheat yeah well I
Think if you find like a regular person that they’re less like I but I don’t think he’ll ever cheat I mean we’re together 24/7 so I don’t know I never got an eye on him yeah it’s actually funny cuz like I like I went out to
Dinner on Friday night by myself and I was just like it’s so weird like he never goes out by himself like he’s always just either with me or like I don’t know that’s so cute though that’s the goal there are like exceptions to the rule but I definitely gotten to a
Point where I’m like I could see myself marrying someone that would end up cheating on me and like being okay with it not okay with it like I’m going to raise hell I’m insane you know what I mean like I’m I’m going to make you suff
You know about it and he’ll know that too like you know because you’ll find out it’s you or to can Tango you know what I mean like I’m sure the cheater has a hot best friend totally yes not everyone’s cheated on you though that you’ve been in a relationship with not
Everyone at all okay so you believe then cuz I just belied everyone cheated for so long I was like everyone cheats so yeah you’ve seen a relationship where it doesn’t happen a lot being cheated on is a part of my like villain origin story I
Think like you know what I mean like it definitely made me a really different person like who how old were you were they famous how did you find out the first time I I’m trying to really think I’ve been cheated on a couple times I mean when I was
Dating um when I was dating Lil xan I um but obviously you know Lil xan’s going to cheat on you like a rapper named Lil xan and this was like what a name crazy absolutely crazy this was like at the time of his like rise to fame as well so
I was like enamored by the lifestyle this is the first time i’ ever dated like anyone in that like scene or whatever he had an assistant the entire time we were dating who was his cousin and he was like oh this is my cousin like she works for me she’d be over all
The time like doing the dishes cleaning the house like whole n come to find she wasn’t his cousin they were [ __ ] the entire time and she was down to like lie to me and be like yeah I’m his cousin oh my which or they were cousins which I
And who knows you know oh my God how did you find out did you walk in did someone text you so I think he ended up telling me himself wow okay but honest King we love that coming forward with it yeah I don’t but it wasn’t like in a I think we
Were like in a fight he was like by the way she’s on my [ __ ] I don’t even I really don’t even actually remember how I like like the specific moment I found out and then after that I had a longterm relationship with a guy named Brad he
Looked like Justin Bieber and we were yes yeah we were dating oh he cheat on you yeah it was the craziest and [ __ ] Trisha what happened cuz it well he was probably looking for like Fame and once he got it he taught me a lot about like you cannot just like believe everything
Someone is and but there is a part of me that also like the way he treated me and like he like he has apologized every single day since then like you know what I mean like to this day we’re cool now yeah like to this like a part of me does
Believe he got caught up in like the LIF or I’m just [ __ ] telling myself that I don’t really know but um we were at a Coachella and I had been wanting to break up with him for like a while like just for other reasons like I just felt
Like I was in the point of my career where I noticed it really like like shifting and taking off and I felt like being tied down wasn’t good and I didn’t want to like be bad to him in that regard and just like not that he was controlling he wanted everything that
Like a boyf friend would usually want and I think I just wanted to be like Wild Child free and so I ended up breaking up with him and then he like went all crazy did a bunch of crazy stuff like at this Coachella was kind of like threatening like his like life kind
Of and his life his own his own life and like he he like took a bunch of drugs and like just all this [ __ ] happened he was like the paramedics had to come all this [ __ ] they 5150 held him and when they 5150 held him I had his phone and
Then all these Snapchat notifications and that’s he was on a 5150 hold when I found out he was cheating on me which was so crazy and you like feel sorry for him cuz like damn he’s like in a like a M Hospital the hardest thing and then I
Was like he came back and I was like okay what night what night is it the night I went to a mental hospital what night is it did we go together he’s at my mental hospital the same 5150 birthday oh it’s your birthday oh my God
No no no there’s so many random things like I found out that one of the nights he was cheating on me I was throwing like a whole birthday party for me or birthday party for him like at my house and [ __ ] but it was all virtual cheating
As well though like he was just Snapchatting like a bunch of like nudes and sex it’s still I mean it’s not as bad I guess as like some him like having sex with the girls but on your birthday which is like wild that happened to his birthday that I threw for him that’s
What Chloe on Tristan’s birthday is when he got that girl pregnant she threw a party for him and got the girl pregnant the night of his birthday party like that is so crazy through for him that is so and I went all out like that’s what I
Mean when I think villain origin story like I turned my whole he was from Canada and like was like staying in LA to be with me so I like made it snow in my house like made it all Canada like all this [ __ ] and like that was like
Kind of the start of me being like Oh my God this man you know what I mean I know oh it it takes like one or two guys to that one really like I’ve had a villain origin story too where I’m like this is where it turned because I’m like I’m so
It just it messes you up because I’m the same way you go so hard for someone and then when they just don’t care at all about how like your feelings have no respect for you also when you’re like known it’s almost like the humiliation thing because so many people knew you
Guys were so public so was more humiliating that he’s like doing this behind your back oh yeah like Tana thinks she has this guy but he’s like dming me or Ming me exactly and that was like there was so many girls like that and I was just like oh my God it really
Was like my like I I remember like the day I went back and changed all of our Instagram captions to like me with cheater like me with this and like that and that’s where that kind of I wasn’t really like that before like [ __ ] you to
Like men and that kind of like you know what I mean like changed cuz he really just brought him up so much like I didn’t know what he did before but you you guys were everywhere together I mean you guys were like a couple like you were a social media couple then I
Learned so much about NE you know what I mean ensuring that if someone doesn’t do what I do already or their intentions right well that’s why you’re smart then to date people that are like the equal amount of Fame if not like you know more Fame in the mainstream you know like or
Just like I vet them the out to make sure they they’re not dating me because it’s so hard like how do you even know it’s like Britney Spear she was in that marriage for like eight years and it’s like obviously he was trying to benefit
Off of her but it’s like how do you know you know everybody’s going to try and benefit Off Britney Spears everybody will try to benefit off you in some capacity everyone and it’s it’s hard too because I think a lot of times it’s like people don’t always go into it for that
But then they become like obsessed with what they see that’s why dating people entertainment is tough because it’s like they get a song off of you they get something you know what I mean and it’s just like maybe they don’t go in with that atttention obviously people are
Going to like you for you but it’s like with entertainment it’s almost that’s how I always felt even if I really genuinely like the person I’m like but you know what they have followers or this and then it’s like it kind of keeps you in that relationship more I don’t
Know oh yeah like person even like would they stay with me if I had nothing to offer them yeah and the most of the time it’s like no that’s why I did love dating like a normal guy that like wasn’t on social media cuz I was like
This is kind of nice because like there’s no benefit of anything there’s like so many drawbacks like he like hated that so many people like knew his like business and was like looking stuff up about him and it’s almost like that’s a better thing but it is hard because I
Think I and I talked to bro when she was on she’s coming up in a couple weeks and she was on and she was saying that too it’s just almost like the excitement’s not there if you date a normal person like if you date a banker are you going
To be excited about them and the for me the like to me the number number one benefit of dating someone that does what you do is like they understand the [ __ ] that you’re going through like you know what I mean more so than someone who doesn’t yeah especially like the hate
You know cuz he would get so much hate comments like directed towards him because he was dating me and he like didn’t understand it you know what I mean so I think you have to date someone to know that cuz otherwise they’re going to get so much hate just for dating you
You know yeah which is just crazy as is yeah that’s that’s always tough but I feel dating is just hard but also like a 25 I mean just yeah I mean that also helps me like weed out people as well just same thing like if you wouldn’t
Want to be seen with me cuz you’re afraid of like people being mad at you like I don’t want to be with you anyway thing you know true yeah who are you dating now you’re like said you’re going on dates more I’m going I’m going on
Dates but like I’m not dating anyone if that makes sense I feel I feel pretty single okay I’m not going to lie this is like the first time in my life where I just feel like I’m doing me and yes I’m going on dates but like I’m just like I
Feel so done with like the pointless [ __ ] yeah like if I like what’s the like I used to be like oh my God like I’m going to date this person and we can have fun and you know we’ll see where it goes and if it lasts a couple months
Like who cares like I had so much fun the casual dating you’re over yeah I’m just I’m just at the point where it’s like I think I would just rather do me than be with someone that I’m not going to like marry totally or at least like
Yeah I’ve always been like that too I’ve always been like I I would say it right away I’m like I want to get married and when people waste my time it like pissed me off so much we’re like I actually don’t want to get married I’m like why
Would you then like lead me on with this you know what I mean 100% I think it’s just like I was more down for it too because I felt like I was in a time in my life where I still had [ __ ] to learn like I could date this person learn like
Okay I don’t want this like you know what I mean but I have just been through it you gone through so I have just learned everything I do and don’t want in a relationship to the point now where I’m like why the would I do that again
Or that again or date this person in a different font again right you know like what you want and it’s not even like you have to get married like tomorrow but just be up front be like I want to get married one day I want this I want
Stability I want monogamy it’s good to be up front like that cuz you know and even just like I don’t like I don’t want to date someone and like like some things about them but be making myself pretend to like so many things about them or trying to make myself fall for
Them for the idea of a relationship and you know what I mean feeling loved and feeling wanted and like you know right yeah that I think that’s a really important thing because it’s just like just knowing and knowing this at such a young age at 25 I feel like you’re going
To be like set up for like good but at the same time like do you get do you feel you probably don’t cuz you’re surrounded by people all the time do you feel like lonely ever I used to be that way where it was like I had to be dating
Someone like I was so codependent I never wanted to sleep alone like I never like you know what I mean I wanted to someone like all day every day like all of that and I finally like within the last like year and a half really just
Broke that yeah like I just realized it was like codependency is like just such a form of addiction in a way crazy and Trauma bonds with people too the amount of people I just stayed with because it was like the addiction to the dopamine of the like toxic highs and oh that’s
The worst like the to being addicted to the toxicity or the cuz I always thought like if you’re not fighting you’re not like in love you know what I mean like oh they don’t care about me if they’re not fighting with me and it’s such a
Real thing like now when I give people advice about it or talk about it it’s like you really especially if you were raised in chaos or born into chaos you your brain becomes so conditioned to think that that’s love that love is something you have to fight for that you
Almost like need that suffrage to have those highs to like deserve them and so on and so forth it’s and it’s again like it’s even just like feeling yourself break out of a toxic thing it’s like being addicted to cigarettes or a drug or something it’s like you want to call
Them you want to keep going back you have to like actively fight that addiction to toxicity and like codependency yeah there’s that’s the toughest part do you still but you still keep friends with some of your exes right I do for the most part so you
Don’t think that’s bad I I think that a lot of times if someone does something that’s really hurtful there should be a period of time like where it’s like and then friends is like like even Brad I was just talking about it’s like we’re like friends and talk all the time we’re
Just cool you know like an occasional he’ll reach out like I’m not reaching out but like if he does you’re hang out like hey how are you yeah if you found the love of your life would you still talk to like mson and Chris and um I do
Not talk to mson he’s one of those ones where you did I thought you were like friends with him no no no we tried to date again and that was my final lesson that was my final lesson this year I’m not kidding you that was my final final
Final lesson I was like uhuh um I don’t I don’t know I think that I was hoping that we would go back and try one more time and maybe a lot of things that we didn’t work out we had grown from and and maybe this is like narcissistic to
Say and he has a whole different standpoint but like I felt like I had grown so much as a person but I was like dating the same person that I was years ago yeah you don’t he changed not a lot is he your age or no he’s like 36 okay
Oh yeah and when you’re like older like that you should kind of have growth at that point yeah and and I just think it was in a good fit like he just you know what I mean in a if I can say something kind it’s like he needs to be with
Someone who is on me you know right he gets a lot of girls like he was with a LaVine right so it’s like he must have something about him like what is it and that yeah I mean he has he’s an amazing he’s like a really positive happy fun
Person a good amount of the time okay you know so he’s like charming and really talented I think like really really [ __ ] talented in so many ways and I think that can be like so enamoring for sure and caring and loving but you have to also weigh into like is
It caring and loving or that love bombing and there’s just like so much different what is the difference between that cuz I feel like I could be a love bomber sometimes I love to just tell someone straight up right away like how much I love them and I want to marry
Them and but I mean it I’m genuine about it well but that’s kind of like being like enamored by someone and like being like love bombing to me how would I put it into words I feel like love bombing to me is like it’s only in the beginning
It’s not through thick and thin it’s not real love like it’s I see you know what it’s it’s almost with and I feel like a lot of people do it without even knowing but but it’s almost a lot of the times can be like with intent like negative
Intent to like what what’s the end goal I mean negative is like a strong word but like I’m going to do all this to get this person and then I don’t necessarily need to keep doing it and they stop doing it or something yeah or like you
Know what I mean like or you after a period of Love bombing I guess happens then you start to see more true colors and [ __ ] you know I don’t know I’ve never been love bombed they’ve always just hated me from the beginning they’ve made it clear that
They’re dis with me really yeah I never had a love bomber ever I just but you always say that and it’s like you are just I’m I’m obsessed with you oh my go I dated you I just don’t understand how anyone could like ever not like you know
But I get it I’ve dated people who I’m like you hated me yeah I’ve never i’ never dated anyone that liked me before Moses for real like for real and it’s like it’s evident during after all of it I’m just like wow they really I really
Do think it’s not that you’re like not you were the most lovable ever I think that it’s I mean and correct me if I’m wrong cuz I relate to this was a people like I almost I feel like there are times in my life where like as a form of
Self harm I would go for people that specifically like that might be true like a yeah almost like a but honestly I don’t know I probably would have dated people that liked me but I just I don’t know I have no idea what it was you know
There’s some people even on Tik Tok that are like 35 and never had a boyfriend I mean that was literally me when I met most like I never lived with someone I never had a serious boyfriend so you know there’s just certain people that just don’t get into relationships but
That’s so awesome to like have all those firsts with like the love of your life yes but so like I’m not discrediting the no you know what it is it’s just like you you’re envious like you have all these relationships that you talk about
And you’re like a I wish I would have in my 20s had like relationships and I miss that like young love you know I do but I think I will look back when I’m older and be like good God like you you like
You do a lot T you’re going to be like I lived because one day you will be married and you’ll be with the same person rest of your life you be God I really lived life and not to say I hope so because there’s a part of my brain
Where I’m like I feel like I can see myself looking back and be like holy I was insane no to me even with the whole when Dylan danis was coming for Nina act I was kind of like honestly she lived like such a cool life like I wish I was
Dating the same way I felt the exact same way bro and I were saying that like all we were like that is so I wish someone was tweeting photos of me and leard same LeBron James with me I’m just like that would be so cool M I would
Always just I would name drop and no one know who the names are I’m like I just love the idea of it I was just like 100% you know I think that’s exciting and I think it’s good to like live your life fully and yeah I agree with that I hope
I hope I look at things that way only forever you oh my God I feel like you do though now I feel like you know you live like such a fun like exciting life there like you know you just battle back and forth with different thought processes
Like there’s a big part of me that is like I lived my life I was a wild party girl for the a long time and like now I can I feel like I really am like in a transitional period where like I’m leaving a lot of things behind what so
Partying drinking are you still sober yes I’m still sober wow it was just like insane I actually only we’ve really started Hing out recently when you’ve been sober so that’s all I know you as so I don’t really know you as like even when I we knew each other in the past I
Never saw you as like a drunk I don’t know I don’t know what your think was drinking drugs I don’t know I never saw you like obliterated I never was like Wow’s a mess you’re lucky for that really you’ve always been like so quick and sharp and even if I was still
Drinking you would still see me like this like I wasn’t like waking up and like getting drunk I just felt like I had become so accustomed to the party lifestyle like like just really normalized it and especially here in La like no one has real jobs like in my
World and people go out every single night and there’s something happening every single night and you can just like really fall into that world and I’m just like numbing out your life by you know going into this crazy party lifestyle and stuff like I just I don’t know I
Finally just feel like I’ve done it all I’ve seen it all and I feel very grown like even you’re like Halloween parties I’m like I’d rather just shoot take the look off and go I love that cuz I thought last night you went out cuz I
Saw you in your Jennifer’s Body off like oh my gosh you must have went out and pared and you’re just like no I literally went to photo shoots and then so then what you just go home and like chill in your bed I took it all off I smoked a joint
Just like hung out I ordered a diet Frozen Diet Coke from McDonald’s have you they have a frozen one I need to go get it right it’s like movie theater level movie theater level is the best thing I’ve ever had in my entire life o that sounds okay diet like favorite but
Frozen Diet Coke literally kidding me wait I don’t know if it was Diet Coke I might be making that up frozen Coke I don’t know it probably could do a frozen Diet Coke I’m sure they could have it was the most insane thing ever it made my whole night better than anything I
Could possibly do I’d love that for you I love that that’s your excitement out because that’s what would get me excited to com home from like a photo shoot for like 10 minutes that you took photos for and then just like having a diet Cod looking at your photos I love to check
Like make the photos I just did so good like love that’s how I felt like and I still will do [ __ ] for like work you know like I’m going to go to a few events that are like work and you know like or I feel like I want to be seen
There doing this but like I’m just very strategic about it now like I I have no desire to like go everywhere just go party and whatever but that’s so important it’s also important cuz it’s just like you are that person that’s like seen I like I was saying like on
Every podcast everything and like that’s so you you’re so visible and I think that’s why you’re so successful I just can’t wait for the day that I can like move to Nebraska you’re not going to move to Nebraska would you ever cuz I feel like now people are in like Wyoming Montana
Colorado I just get a yak Farm next door to [ __ ] sorry sorry sorry but there’s no beef here there’s only Yak um just Yak I would love to try some yes so would I that’s a video like oh my God I’ll order some next time you come on
She means it I will I’ll bring it to your house like anyone else who said that would not actually go and do it I might actually order some yeah that would kind of Be Kind want to try some y um I would move away maybe people always
Like where do you think you’re going to end up and it’s to say but I think it depends on the who I end up with which I know is like that’s no that’s so normal I don’t ever want people to think I’m like living my life for a man but I’m
Saying like I don’t know where my future ends you know honestly that’s why I always put off buying a house because I never saw me buying a house and having a man move in with me like you know what I mean because it’s like like you have to
Like collab on it it’s got to be like th% I would never want to buy a house and like someone moves in with me I don’t know that feels weird and like I don’t want that dude well at least in California with like so much of the
Taxes and so much sometimes renting is equal like to buying and people always like why don’t you buy a house and I feel like you would relate on this like I just for so long I’ve been like dude I can’t decide anything permanently no you’ll change quick you’ll meet someone
Who now is like a country singer in Nashville and you’re like I’m moving to Nashville and then you like and I’m still in that era where I like I just I don’t know if he her is ever I thought the same thing I I knew people that were
Like a singer in Nashville I was like I’ll move to Nashville with him like I would move literally anywhere I almost was going to do like nday fiance where I go to like a different country like cuz you just don’t know you’re like maybe that’s my calling you almost did 90-day
Fiance I did actually and quarantine happened and it happened so I had a friend who I really liked I would say we were dating he maybe not he was German and he was oh God he was he was Gorge and I I think I even told Moses about
This when we first met cuz I was like we were supposed to like be on it and stuff like that and we like got like engaged and it honestly it was all for the I guess on his so was it always a cardboard cutout no it was a real person wait what
Bre no no no but I’m saying like were you actually really engaged and then you were like oh just kidding it’s a cardboard cutout or these two different things no that’s two different things I just had a whole master plan went through in my mind okay the cardb cutout
Era was 2019 that’s when I was just on drugs this was like I’m in my sane mind like let me like get married and so I actually really did want to get married he I wouldn’t say it was for the show but he wanted to obviously like come
Over here and do the whole K1 visa and wanted to get married so we he he had said cuz he knew I like to be on a reality show like oh we should do this like 90day fiance what is the premise of 90day fiance you never watched it no I
What I love it I’ve been so okay you guys have to watch it together do you guys watch TV together like you and Mario are you guys watching TV I love that we have sleepovers a lot too that’s actually how I take out my codependency healthy now like when I’m like bored and
Alone I’ll be like come to my room that’s so fun I love that like Amari is like literally like the brother it’s the best I love you’re so you’re so sweet and so wonder I look at him with such Like Love In My Eyes he’s my little pumpkin
I can’t wait to go to like his family’s house his mom’s house I’m not kidding you I can’t wait to I can’t wait to bring you home I’m not even kidding next time you’re in Vegas we are taking Trisha home and sure next time you Vegas
I know we just drive up there it’s so easy for us now we like drive up there it’s like super God we were driving to like Upstate California the other day or or not Upstate downstate see that’s where I get dumb I don’t know where I
Don’t know the difference well I mean up is probably up and down is probably down I would I think so right I think anyone say down state I don’t know down no one says that I just said that um and it’s like driving to Vegas is faster than a
Lot of [ __ ] in California yeah unless you’re doing your PJ is that what they call them private DRS yeah unless you’re doing a PJ then you can just drive up to Van eyes and God thank God it is kind of cool the only time I did do it was just
Driver star and that was like actually kind of cool I was like I would love you and I should do a podcast from a jet um that sounds expensive on me on me on me on me well do you know a connection are you going to like finesse us to get one
Because I don’t want you to pay for it maybe ask your ran person I there’s weird cuz I love to spend money like on purses and stuff but like a $30,000 Jet Jet or like $10,000 jet even it’s like seems so crazy to me B I’m so the
Opposite I love to spend money on experience versus nice [ __ ] and I like get so weird I agree but like a jet like I sleep you know I sleep on a plane all the time I can’t stay up I like know I will I’ll just pay to sleep for the
Convenience it’s so bad that’s like that’s the I wish like if I could go back in time and not be put on to like flying private like I almost would really because it’s like I just I’m such a lazy ass [ __ ] rolling the suitcase out of the car and
Like just oh my God it’s like my but it’s like I say it like it’s like you know what I mean like the convenience of being in a comfortable car it’s not it’s ridiculous yeah I mean to me I feel that way about like first class but even
That’s like a Splurge I’m like oh my God no but private jets are wild to I’m like the other day I was like I wanted to buy like a bed frame and the bed frame was like 1,700 bucks and I was like I can’t and Ari was like T do you know what
You’ve spent on like this trip do you know what you spent on this trip like he had to be like get the frame you’re going to have it forever you get I got theed where from CB2 where’s that CB2 is it’s like it’s like nice furniture it’s
Like it’s like the like Furniture like whatever but I honestly I can go on a whole rant about them wait why not good like just the delivery times and all the like whatever that’s like notorious with Furniture people they never show up on time things are broken like it’s always
The case and it’s like if you don’t like confirm your delivery like four times within these windows they can just keep your money and not give you the furniture like what the did that happen to you that did happen to me like 5 years ago okay with Gallery Furniture I
Bought no way I bought $10,000 in Z Gallery and I didn’t confirm within a 7day window and I got none of my furniture and they kept my money they kept $10,000 yes did you ever tell this story honestly not enough Gallery wait that I still couch last year are they even
Around was their store closed down at Beverly Hills like their stores closed down at they’re kind of like just yeah like a little they like went a little but I I love their Cloud couches more than the Reformation Hardware ones oh my God we had a CL couch it was the worst
Thing ever was always deflated and it like goes down and it’s but Z Gallery makes a leather one that like is indestructible I’ve done everything you could possibly think of with this couch I could like blow it up and it would still be there wait really Z calorie how
Much was it I think it’s a it’s a cloud couch Cloud sectional for 5,000 so the same that’s not bad the CL was 20,000 at Restoration Hardware that’s how much I paid cuz that’s when like David had it I was like I’m going to get this too you
Know everyone has that couch it’s awful gave $20,000 $20,000 we gave it to my mom and she has a couch and she uses that one for the dogs she like let the dogs cuz it’s like literally so low and like deflated and get they like get really shitty that’s why I never bought
That couch cuz I was like the last thing I need is I’m weird about furniture I want it to be ining destructible cuz I’m just like I know we’re the same way I’m always like I want to like be able to do the most to it cuz I like to jump on
Couches like do all that stuff like that absolutely like I I wish I could be one of those people where it’s like no outside clothes inside and like no this no that like wait do you wear your outside clothes inside like do you wear your outside clothes in your bed no oh
That and I’m don’t you don’t no one does that you wear your clothes that you sat in Chili’s with and you’re going to put your butt in your bed yes no but I’m just oh my God I’m like I’m not clean at all I I mean we’re we have like we have
A housekeeper and stuff but I’m not like I’m a messy person I don’t care I’m not OCD but that’s if I’m like that’s disgrace yeah I’ll wear like underwear out of the packaging and I don’t care but it’s just like I don’t know putting your clothes like where you just I don’t
Know I have to change a lot of my mentality like that this is like such a dark response to like this whole conversation comes from like when I was just so depressive for so long I would like obviously I would just like fall asleep in my bed and mying clothes like
I didn’t care about anything so I was just and it just like some things just stuck that’s wild that’s wild cuz even when I was depressed like let me just get some sweatpants on and be an ugly [ __ ] in sweatpants you know what I mean
Like or right just be the ugly [ __ ] in sweatpants all day and then still sleep in them like you know what I mean like two days deep 3 days de um That’s why nothing like freaks me out ever I’m just like H you know whatever even like not
Showering for a couple days it doesn’t bother me if someone doesn’t shower for a couple days but that I don’t know I’m just like atast switch the outfits that’s wild that’s wild showering is like you probably relate to this though showering as a fake [ __ ] is
Just like so it’s doing the most yeah I don’t like to sh I mean I once I’m in it I’m fine I like it but I’m not like I love to shower yeah I that’s what I don’t understand I just SP everywhere but like people who love to shower it’s
Cuz they they just get out it’s usually the people who get out and they’re just like all natural and I see what you’re saying yeah it’s like more M tan like hair like your head of hair your hair removal yeah the Shaving the blowy the hair after oh my God everything to shave
Everything is just like so much work for me a lot yeah the hair and then I get out and I tan my body after the shower so it’s like a whole thing yeah it’s it’s a lot yeah I kind of just like it’s not a peaceful thing to me it feels like
A chore especially hair wash I’m just like that sounds yeah you have you have to exfoliate your whole body like just so many things yeah I don’t I don’t love I never really love shower when I was single I would shower like every couple days or something like that I was just
Like okay now I try to shower like I’ll shower more for someone oh for sure yeah yeah and early on I always shower every day but now I’m just like yeah I don’t stink though I don’t really like stink like I don’t work out so I like I really
Like I I like to think I smell good yeah you smell great you always smell good no you smell good I smell like Tanner so that’s why I Tanner today yeah I smell a little bit like Tanner no you smell good I don’t like workout or anything so I
Feel like if I did I’d probably shower more I’ve been trying so hard to become a workout girl like you look great well thank you but I just I’ve been trying so hard I live with Ashley and she’s just such a like she has a routine she cooks
Her healthy dinner and she works out every day and it’s like I would just love to be one of those people especially because a lot of people say that like when they get sober they replace that addiction with like a healthy one like working out whatever
And I’m trying so hard to become that right now and it’s like I will just always find it miserable you don’t love the gym at all yeah I don’t either I I never underst that either cuz I’m an addicted personality like you’ll get addicted to the gym and I’m like never
Tried so many to like become addicted to and I’m just like it’s so gross and sweaty and I’m just so lazy and I hate it I’ve had a trainer I’ve had train the house I’ve gone to gyms I’ve gone to I tried to gues everything and I’m like I
Just those people who wake up every day and they’re like I need like I want I need my day is not right without it like I was literally someone it’s crazy no I know same I’m just like this sounds awful in every shape and form it’s so
But it’s amazing to people who do it I just I hope there are people out there that like feel seen by us like you know I mean I think a lot of my audience feel seen by just not being able to control my eating and just never working out I’m
Like they’re like I feel that too it’s hard God yeah we love to see it speaking of body so you were going to get a BBL you went for consultation oh my God talk about this in Glam like I want to save it for the podcast cuz Okay
So I get and I’ve always been open about this like I filmed it I vlogged it every time I get it I film it for tanagon wild my show on that website um but I get ass injection sculpture oh I didn’t know this okay so this is like oh yeah
Injections like with the syringe yes they’re they’re big ass needles and like canula Vibes and they numb you out and I like do this once every six months and I have for years and years and what are you injecting with um like like wrestling or no no no sculpture it’s
Like that’s actually the like product and it was created originally for like medical use like I think like burn victims and different stuff like that or like if they like lost a chunk of skin they would inject sculpture and it makes the collagen like naturally regrow itself back that’s cool that’s really
Neat and so you know at the time where like I everyone I knew was getting silicone in their ass on theing kitchen island and duct taping it up and like you you know like and I was very tempted but I was just scared like and bad [ __ ]
Happens people can die from that there’s like so much [ __ ] so when sculpture kind of like was popularized I was like obsessed with it cuz you inject it and then it makes your own butt literally grow like which is so crazy that’s like a crazy thing like and it’s just like
That’s cool I’m never going yeah I’m never going to be a [ __ ] in the gym trying to grow a butt I’ve tried it’s too hard whatever I love sculpture yeah and now everyone can do it genetically too sometimes like you just can’t they say everyone can but like yeah I just
Genetically have always had really like like hip dips like you know what I mean what is that like where like just like inverts like at your hips so instead of being like this you just have like hip dips you know and so I would always get
Them like filled and whatever and um I don’t it’s just really painful and it’s like a lot like it’s just a lot to do and then you’re all bruised up and you like can’t walk for like two days and I’ve just done it like once every six
Months for like at least 5 years oh my gosh like I just got it like I still to this day like you know what I mean wow and so and obviously yes there’s the conversation of like maybe one day just love having hip dips but like we’re not
Fuing there yet okay um and so I eventually I was just like in interested in the idea of kind of One-Stop shopping it like getting a BBL yeah and just like sucking it out of somewhere putting it in the hip dips and calling it a [ __ ]
Day you know and just the pain one time and like whatever and so I went in for a consultation they’re expensive as how much are they now cuz mine was only like 8,000 yeah and it wasn’t that long ago mine was like content I want to know I went well I
Went to this doctor that’s like super known for like within the community of like he’s done some Kardashians he’s like done some oh I don’t know that doctor it might be worth it if he did those kind of you know people yeah but then Brooke was like going on a tangent
That like he’s not the one so like and everyone has different opinions on this [ __ ] that’s what’s like so crazy cuz it’s such a major surgery yeah it really is you should ask L Demi cuz her surgeon is like really good she gave me his name
And I went for a consultation he’s like older and he a lot of tea girls and like they’re he’s amazing but he was is Dr yovino maybe I don’t remember the name but he was like $20,000 for like breast and plant like damn but yeah this guy
Was 50k for a BBL by the way $50,000 that’s wild cuz you’re not even getting like implants or anything like that’s crazy you’re just under the knife like I and I know with him you’re paying for the name and I’m not I I’m still like mildly interested but like oh 50k is a
Lot it’s it’s not even like yes it’s the money like that’s an like and my sculpture has always been free like like that’s I maybe I just don’t need to do all that you know um but I had no idea like did you have a catheter um no I did
Not have a catheter with my wait no no oh I only had a catheter when I gave birth I didn’t have one for my surgeries really that’s wild they told you you’re going to need a catheter yeah and like how long could you not sit for I mean
You’re on a cushion like you you get like a thing and yes you’re on your side and back a lot but like my mom like helped me go to the bathroom and stuff like that like how long was it miserable for but it wasn’t that’s what I was
Saying to you it actually like wasn’t like it’s like it’s uncomfortable it’s like uncomfortable but it’s not miserable so many people have told me it feels like they got hit by a bust like worst pain of their life I know people have given birth and they’re like like
They say it’s the worst thing they’ve ever ever ever been through okay wait so are you just getting are you going to get uh like fat transfer you don’t have much fat a fat transfer from where you really don’t have it for real I’m not
Just saying that I I would just tell the doctor pick a place you know what I mean yeah sometimes you don’t if they don’t have it though that’s like the difficult part is you don’t have fat to take it but anyways that like the fat transfer
Like it’s just not like lipo section but yeah I guess they would take it out I guess they would take out the fat lipo section I think it I would do like the full thing like have them suck it out so it would be lipo and then put it back in
To me it just really just didn’t hurt it was just numb you’re numb for like a month but it wasn’t like I promise you like you’re telling me you were sorry sorry this combo just got so real I literally I like the cameras went away
In my head I was like you’re like dead ass you were just numb I was just numb I did not feel like I was hit by a talk um jeez I don’t know and I I have a low pain tolerance just for like no you don’t you don’t think you have high pain
You think so I always been told I have low paint I’m a [ __ ] I’ll take like lip injections no numbing I’ll just like stick it in crazy crazy crazy yeah I do I don’t know I always thought I had a low but even like breast implants like
Breast implants hurt more than the BBL just the tightness of it but we should nose job I heard nose jobs are the worst actually like I heard they break your nose like that’s the whole they did break my nose but I wasn’t in any pain
So I think you would be okay cuz it’s but every there so many people are like a no job was a cakewalk in comparison to a BBL like I’ve only and maybe it’s just cuz I’ve heard so many and I know a lot of girls who do get bbl’s like theying
Starbucks lattes so it’s like how bad can it be if you’ve had seven to me it like wasn’t bad at all it’s just like annoying cuz like yeah you have to sit on like a cushion like if you’re in Uber you have like a cushion so your butt
Doesn’t you know get flat or something you like a Recovery Place um no I was in a hotel for like a day we were in Newport Beach and my mom stayed in a hotel with me for a couple days oh the only thing is you have to like put tarp
Down because you do leak like you leak did you get lymphatic drainage or did you just let it leak um I had drains so it was like it was catching it and you had like empty your drains like it was catching like blood and stuff and then you had get the lymphatic drainage
Massage so I must have had that I guess yeah but it was it was a it was a quick recovery was like a month but like I was doing stuff I was like going to the movies and stuff like that but I swear toing God yeah it was I loved my
Experience honestly I would do it again should we go yeah I would love to honestly I’m we’re trying to have another baby so maybe after my next surgery I’m going to get the full like Heidi mon just like a full thing like tummy tuck chin like everything it’s so
Funny cuz when that happened I remember like I was like pretty young like younger when Heidi like did that whole thing and I remember like that’s so scary and now I’m like I want the Heidi Mont special it was everything even when I was cuz she’s like a few only a few
Years older than me but she was still young when she did it and I was like young I was 18 but I was like so jealous I was like God she looks so good she had her huge boobs her face like everything do you know her have you guys been on
Their podcast hiding I have not but I would love to yeah I need to like reach out I think I like Spencer Pratt and I have like commented on a Tik Tok or two but I also could be completely making that up right now like it sounds right
But like it also kind of sounds like a lie so I’m not sure yeah crazy I love people who just go full Rogue Expos you know we talked about that I feel like they kind of been lowkey like you never really I think on purpose like you never
Hear about Heidi and Spencer or anything that that’s true but like did you see Spencer’s whole Tik Tok series the crystals or something different no he like was coming for like the hills and like was just like being like Lauren Conrad was nothing like this and this
Was nothing like this and like when he would like have it behind him and he’s like watching it I got of live for that I for that would be me I mean I would do that now with my old videos I’d be like this is not real this is fake whatever I
Think it’s kind of interesting like that I love when to expose it I I expose a lot but I want to go hard soon I keep telling you that’s like the one thing and I just I feel like it’s so funny cuz I really am an open book and talk about
Everything but I just have so much that I could yeah oh same I feel like there’s way more like Britney Spears has her T book coming out like next week did you see that do you think she wrote it um or do you think that she’s still under
Something oh I think she definitely maybe she didn’t like write it at a like a like a keyboard but I think she definitely told the stories because the one that came out today was that Justin timberl got her pregnant and she had an abortion oh and that’s in the book yeah
She is the book out it’s out next week but she she’s on the cover of People magazine right now today so she did interview with them so I think she like actually wrote this one cuz she talks about the conservative ship how she felt like she was like a child like I think
She I think it’s pretty real and she talks about it damn so while basically while Justin was basically trying to make her look like a villain like she’s like going through like this like abortion she didn’t want because Justin wasn’t ready to be a dad and she wanted
The baby and it’s like crazy so she’s like spilling like so much tea on it I can’t wait yeah it comes out Reas I was like seeing [ __ ] that I don’t remember what I saw like of just people like saying that it like it probably has definitely gone through some things but
I feel like she’s pretty open about like the conservatorship like and if a story like that is in it like it’s giving like yeah it’s giving some insight to a lot of things she talks about like her grandma who was like mentally ill who like lost like her children like she
Talks about like this huge thing where she has like mental illness in her family and why she shaved her head like she kind of goes like in I think yeah and then I think there’s a chapter about her husband Sam but that hasn’t been leaked yet so I’m really I’m into it I’m
Really excited so excited well anyways I feel like that totally because you think like oh you know you would know everything about Britney everything’s out there but it’s interesting when it’s not same thing with you you’re such an open book but I feel like there’s probably so much stuff because you’re
Still like trying to protect people I love a tell like when Hol Madison released her tell oh yeah like what was it down the rabbit hole Rabbit Hole he was still alive which I love I thought that was like so good because you know people wait till people are dead to talk
[ __ ] El and stuff but it’s like do it while they’re alive you know I ran to get that book and read it front to back immediately I love a tell from someone that I like I’ve been I need to read Pamela’s I have it on my nightstand I
Just haven’t gotten around to so good the one that just came out like a year ago you should do a Pamela this year I think I might have to I’m out of them but your guy you guys just reminded me that there’s one more so I might do it
The yeah that would be good cuz I don’t see anyone doing it too yeah I’ve never seen anyone do that you your makeup you’re such a baby face like you would look like young Pam like it’s crazy I she’s like do you hear that [ __ ] like just delusion no you’re a gorge without
Your makeup I was like oh my God I forget you’re like 25 but you look like you’re 19 without it oh my Trisha it’s actually wild I’m moving in like I think I’m just at the point where it’s like I want to be here 247 like loves you so
You would be like the perfect living you know probably taking a nap but she’ll probably be up by the time we are done with this she lives my dream life yeah she just up tomorrow as malib I would literally not question [ __ ] she kind of has a dream life I would be like
Goooo Gaga [ __ ] we like what’s up she’s talking more now she’s like trying she’s walking and stuff so yeah has she said the first word yet or no she says words like ball and Mama and D like she says words but she doesn’t say like sentences
Yeah she’ll say like ball do you know the first first first word she ever said I want to say it was bubblegum yeah cuz she loves Miss Rachel and she would say bubblegum she’s like bubblegum Malibu Barbie’s first word being bubblegum right I think it was bubblegum it was
Like 3 months or something and I was like w she said bubblegum cuz she just heard the song over over it’s like iyck Sicky Sicky bubblegum bubblegum bubblegum and then she just said bubblegum honestly like that’s Camp see I don’t care what camp means that’s Camp’s invited to the Met
Yes win I wonder like I really spend way too much of my time first of all just like why am I like thinking about like your child’s future like T literally focus on your own life but like I just I’m so excited to see what she’s going
To be like it’s it is exciting it’s just like in general like you have no idea what this person’s going to be and you’re just like this is very exciting to watch every day just unfolding you’re like w this like a new person really like Wonder like if she’s going to be
Just like you or opposite and yeah you never know can go both ways like I have no idea I feel like now she’s like a lot like Nish but you know who knows she could be like totally private and quiet and just completely opposite yeah God I
Hope she’s just like you that’d be wild you’re like I yeah I know it’s kind of scary that part’s all scary and like growing up in this world and global warming and all that she does sing she loves to sing yeah yeah she does love to
Sing oh my God if she like really loved singing would you ever do like a song oh my God yes I would love it you should do that literally tomorrow as like a PR St a song with M yeah like Drake suon did a song yeah her and AD just do it together
Yeah that’d be everything get to the studio okay call Drake I’m not even kidding someone needs to it’s not it’s not Little Miss fot over here who won’t talk about anything of him not showering who’s your um who’s your dream guest on your podcast did I ask you this what about
Pete Davidson that’s my number one celebrity crush oh it is yeah that’s my number one celebr DM he doesn’t have any social media and at any time that he has i’ like I’m sure I’ve tried you know and he was on Rya for a while and I was
Banned from Rya and I was just like oh my God and I met him one time and just like oh you did how was it it was so like out of the movies like I don’t know how to explain it I was at it was Machine Gun Kelly’s birthday party and
Pete was there cuz they’re best friends and he they’re all in a group of like a bunch of people are standing around and he said something about being on mushrooms or something and then I like said a sentence to him and I felt like I
Was like oh my God this I’m in love with this man he’s so hot and I was like this is the moment it’s going to happen whatever and I won’t say her name but this like beautiful supermodel walks up to like join the conversation and I just immediately watched him be like hello
Super model and I was like no do you think he was like vibing for the like one like sentence you said to him do you think it would have been a Vibe like well I I don’t know I like to think that we’d get along cuz that’s so your type
That’s so your type physically and then he’s also but he also has all those tattoos he looks a little sick like you know what I mean oh my God that man could actually run me over with a car and I see oh my God stop he’s going to
See it he’s never no but this is what you got to put out there okay when I was single I’d always talk about people hoping they would see this you know what I mean cuz you never know like whoever like you know they see it and it’s like
That’s why I talk about people just cuz I want them on the podcast like I love the we can come on the podcast cuz you never know maybe someone shows them that clip and he’s like I’ll do that one girl podcast even though I don’t do anyone
Else’s so maybe for me I think that works with him it’s like I I really actually would never want him to do the podcast right so in your case to you right that’s what I’m saying I was making it the equivalent cuz I was like I think it happens like Taylor lner
Married his fan like he had a Twilight fan married that he married she had like when she was younger she was all in Twilight gear and stuff like that I didn’t Haley beaver and Justin too like she like grew up beli I think it really happens that way and obviously they have
Some sort of well actually Taylor lner’s wife wasn’t like any social media person but it’s like it it works out that way I think sometimes I think you can don’t totally be like a fan I think Pete was probably like a fan of like people and
Like how he dated them like he dates some really hot people yeah w i wonder his like mindset too though like I was thinking about this the other day because I’m literally and I never stop thinking about like whatever anyways um wait you’re literally a murderer like I
Just I’m so creepy for being thinking about this the other day but like imagine like he like there had to have been a point where he was [ __ ] Kim Kardashian he had like an outof body experience and was like I’m Kim Kardashian right now like I don’t know I
Feel like with him he’s like as his uh Pete I’m just Pete song said he’s like bde you know what I mean I think he just knows he’s that person in the bed so I think he just knows that you know what I mean I mean I guess like but like how
Did my bde like snowball and I got here yeah I when you’re with Ariana Grande you’re just kind of used to it at this point you’re like I guess that’s true Ariana Grande is like equally as right it’s almost being with like Jason mimoa and then also like Leonardo Caprio Ben
You’re just like with all those people you’re like nothing really phases me I guess I don’t know but Kim is wild Kim is definitely the biggest and definitely like the most Gorge for sure so he probably like crazy like but but I get what you’re saying like he probably is
Just like I’m just Pete just yeah I get a SW oh God I would love and he’s age appropriate you guys are like the same age I think oh he’s about to turn 30 why do I know that what how no but that’s perfect I would love to be with the
29-year-old yeah that’s that’s perfect you know what I mean and I just can’t find them my God Pete Davidson that’s such a good one I don’t know we’ll see that’s oh my God that would be wild oh my God speaking of creepy though we have to talk about your stalker cuz this is
Like all the thing right now too not all the thing okay first of all so it’s a real stalker but people take it very like lightly around you well I is it because you have so many is it cuz you make light of it like I’ve had two in my
Life where I was like genuinely afraid for my life but obviously I did I made so many story times about it I am very dramatic as well so I think that that makes the majority of people take everything I say with like a grain of salt and I do think even just people
Around me my friends and I are always going to be the type to make a joke out of a serious situation what it why people don’t take it as seriously cuz I’m just very drama about everything and you know but um I feel like the stalker I have right now makes my first
Stalker really look like a cakewalk you know he’s in the same state he’s in California he too to my knowledge I mean from what I know he like lives out of his car which is so much worse yeah you don’t know where he’s at would exactly and you can’t like serve a restraining
Order to someone who doesn’t there’s nowhere to serve it to and like the police are never going to care enough to track down someone in their car if they haven’t literally already K someone especially in Los Angeles it all stemmed from o like which I totally know and even
Like with my agency like I’m always telling girls like you have to and even just doing online [ __ ] in general you have to be very wary of like the parasocial relationships it can create and if someone maybe isn’t mentally fully stable they can especally with influencers and even you know of and any
Pay wall website where you’re messaging people directly like people can really if they’re not mentally sane enough you know they can take that and misconstrue it to I’m dating her she’s in love with me I love her we know each other yeah cuz they messaging you and you know I’m
Talking to her all day so I can come over like you know they people just take it and do some crazy stuff and yeah I mean this is someone you messaged before yes so it all started cuz he was subscribed to my like o and sending messages and then very
Quickly it was to me and Ashley he was subscribed to the both of us and messaging really weird stuff and it like super quickly like I was like something’s up here and like cut off all communication but then it was like we were noticing like we’d be doing an o
Live and suddenly he made a new account and he’s back in there and weird stuff like that you know and then over time it was like finding ways to message us on different platforms oh I’m outside of your house look the pictures and yeah like I we lived like four years ago we
Lived at this house on a hill and he like climbed the whole hill with a knife and was sending photos like look at me I’m outside of your house like and that’s when I first got security like fulltime and then did you call the cops
Yes I’ve called the cops on him a lot of times and what do they do they can’t do much right um they don’t they just don’t care I think there’s like and I get it there’s so much like insane crime happening in Los Angeles as well and
Like I get that you know whatever and but it is just like I’ve had 911 operators literally be like and you’re sure it’s not a crazy boyfriend after me literally like scream crying about like what’s happening and i’ I’ve taken the calm approaches like hi this has
Happened again here’s this you know and it’s it it is just a lot of things where it’s like he would drop my favorite foods off on my doorstep and then you call 911 and they’re like he left you tahen and shamoy at your doorstep what
The [ __ ] do you want us to do you know and then I mean that’s different than him showing up to your house with a knife I mean that should be taken seriously or at least a picture you know of it and absolutely just so many so so
Many different like I could tell you a thousand instances but it would like take hours where he’s just shown up and done really weird [ __ ] and I mean the head of my security always says to me like Tana I love you so much but LA Police like and the head of my security
Is like he did Alicia Keys for years he’s done like so many people he’s seen some crazy [ __ ] with celebrities too of like stalkers trying to hurt them or soccer doing weird [ __ ] and he’s like in all of my like time the police have never cared and there’s a body or
There’s uh it’s wild he’s in your house with a weapon you know and even then I mean I’ve had that happen where people are like in my house and they like literally don’t they take them in and then they release them this was during 2020 but they just take him in and
Release them it was like the scariest thing so what happened again I think we might have talked about this I don’t think I’ve ever like Shar I probably maybe shared it but someone like came into our my house when me and him were dating and where were you living I I was
In uh Studio City in like the Donas you know like Dona Rosa like those areas so was off laal Canyon and yeah it was like and that’s when I got I that’s when I got a security guard cuz I was just like so it happened twice and it was because
Of O and one guy came one gu came with a gun he came with his kid first then he came back with a gun this was on my birthday this is May 8 2020 and um called the cops they arrested him he had a gun everything like that and he was
Like released that night and then another person came in while I was in the shower yeah I just was in your house just chilling he said hi he was like just came to say hi he like came up to my bedroom all stuff like that and like
Said hi and it was like really yeah it was like really really scary so yeah for both of us at that [ __ ] like that serious and we were like casually dating but I just remember like I’d have to like show him proof that this was happening cuz I always wanted him to
Come over and I thought oh he’s probably think I’m making this up to like have him come over but it was like the wildest time to Moses to Moses yeah cuz I also always think that guys think that I’m trying to be like oh my God no I’m literally terrified for my
Life it happened like three times and I just felt like at one point that I just had to keep showing like cops at my house like all this stuff like that be like this is like real cuz I’m you know also cuz I I’m I’m an exaggerator too so
He just probably like you’re exaggerating and I was like this is like so real and what did you do when he was like I just came to say hi like what was your I ran I ran outside so like I was close I was in the hill so we had like
Neighbors on our thing so I kind of like ran outside it was during the day too so I just like ran outside there’s alarms there was alarms I had a a security system not even a ring it was like a bougie security system so like the
Alarms went off yeah yeah I had so many and I was just like the cameras weren’t great but the alarms were and so I ran out I called 91 I called 91 so many times and they came like 45 minutes later and no that’s that’s what’s crazy
Anytime like if police have ever showed up I remember one of the last times I called 911 for my stalker they were like yeah we can come tomorrow in a window between like 10000 p.m. and 7:00 p.m. does that work for you and then I was
Like oh I I’m leaving tomorrow like I he just dropped off something right I was hoping you could come now talking to 911 like it’s aing nail appointment no you really have to you have to you have to almost over even though it’s so serious you have to really say like I’m in
Danger someone’s in my house otherwise they won’t come and I remember the 911 operator was just like so you must not care about it that much like it was this [ __ ] and I was like oh you like I was so I was Furious I was like there’s no
Way she was so mean to us page I’ll never forget that day like it was awful no operators are kind of like that they you get attitudes like just just Tik Tok you know on Tik Tok you see 911 calls and like The Operators can be like super
Rude and I’m sure they’re like you know it’s probably a stressful job but still I mean I can’t imagine I think it is I used to want to be a 911 operator I think it’s a really cool job so like hats off to people who do that it’s
Soing hard but yeah yeah I just it was crazy like Paige and I were calmly talking the both of us telling her information like not talking over each other I remember she was like one of you at a time like what the [ __ ] like it was
Just like I was like oh my God that’s so are you home at the time this happens where he comes by and you’re like calling the cops or are you like I have never like physically seen him like and it’s crazy because I have i’ like I have
Every security system like and that’s what scares me too is it’s like he he’s like cheated my cameras a lot and now I finally think my place is like camera camera camera camera camera but it’s crazy you literally need to buy like 50 cameras to actually get every angle
Around your house like it’s easy for people to like you need to get the ones that move there’s like 360 ones that move with motion well you also have a really good security guard like when even when we went he was very like I I never SEC guards like that very like you
Know who are you who are you see like you know very that so they are like the best and it’s great but it’s just like it’s expensive as and I would love to just lock up my house and feel safe it’s like it’s really just the mental of it
All like anytime I’m like walking around my house alone I notice myself like every single day I’ll be W I’ll be just like walking from my bed to my bathroom alone and in my head I’m playing like what if he jumped out right here and
Tried to kill me what would I do and then I always am just like having dreams and thinking about like him kill me and like how he and it’s just like so that’s all I ever thought about yeah then you’re just like do I get a weapon do I
Not to shoot the weapon would I get it in time like am I going to get in trouble for using this like oh yeah all that stuff and it’s it’s the scariest thing living alone and you live with people but yeah being alone at your house I guess it’s it’s it’s so scary
And I lived alone my whole life and I was like terrified yeah it’s so scary especially in a house so and then when you’re and stuff like that he never comes to like events you’re going to be at like the streames you publicizing that you’re going he’s not showing up
There I really yeah the streams I did publicize I was going to go and like i’ I’ve really like now and I used to never be like this even when I had my first stalker like I wasn’t as afraid to where I would still post [ __ ] in real time and
Now I’m finally like now I won’t like if it’s location telling you know what I mean yeah if I can or if I’m at like someone’s house and it’s like you know but if I’m like at a restaurant or if I’m at like a concert or anywhere like
That like I’m not you never but it is just scary like just certain random things where it’s like at tour I’ve been terrified like I really up the security on tour he didn’t come to your tour he didn’t come to my tour H that’s I know that and that’s how I think whenever
Something that I think he’s going to do he doesn’t do I’m like have you heard from him since cuz you just finished tour like last week yeah he messages me all the time let’s see what he said today what on Instagram um all different platforms different way he’s going to
Different because I get really scared of the idea of especially in the past my stalker like other one I felt like if I would like block him on things he would like try harder to get my attention I felt like it was like a form of acknowledgement and then I go through
The Battle of like even I didn’t talk about this stalker online for so long cuz I was like will the acknowledgement feed the fire or will it like stop it or like so on and and I still battle that I don’t know which is better or worse well
He must see it now it’s so viral like you’ve talked about it on your podcast like he must see it right I think so I don’t know it’s so weird because he messages me like so much and never once like brings up that I talk about him I’m
Trying to see what he say interesting he said he loved my Jennifer’s body costume can I see I don’t to read them I just want to see like the look at this it’s actually crazy like it’s just like every day all day different messages on different platforms like this and then
That’s all find and good if you want to do that from your house or whatever the but it’s like when it crosses the line of into real life and he’s done a few that are just really scary like Ashley eating at her like one of her favorite
Restaurants and him like a picture of her doing yeah like just [ __ ] like that where it’s like how did you even know she’s going to be there like how long were you following her for so he’s like following when should they leave the house to go somewhere but I and we have
Security like follow behind us like until like we just we do it all now but it’s just like crazy to have to do all that what makes this one scarier than the one you had before cuz the one you had before had like Polaroids of you sleeping right so much crazy [ __ ] that
He did over time but like he was in my second grade class like my first stalker like and it’s like it’s such a long story but like [ __ ] just would happen in second grade and then fifth grade and then in eighth grade and then it would
Get closer together and then I think I like blew up on YouTube and he was kind of obsessed with that and like it got worse and worse and stuff like that but even then he only like came to my house twice to my knowledge and like his build
As well like and I I don’t I don’t mean to um body shame yeah you know I’m not but I I just I don’t want to say I felt like I could take him but he was just like this like lanky like skinny like my
Age like you know what I mean like I I knew look like as a child he was literally in my second grade class like it for some reason it was just like his name is William I was like oh William like you know what I mean like I was
Still terrified in certain settings and different solutions but like this is just like a big guy who’s like 40 and like he like he would [ __ ] like it’s just like I don’t know what it is and like and just so much of it like him like living out of his car it’s like
What if he feels like one day he has nothing to like lose you know and like and he knows you from OS so it’s like a different vibe it’s like he know the other kid know you just from growing up this guy knows you from a girlfriend experience almost yeah and that’s just
Like MH and clear like I think I also feel like I could like mentally make more sense of my other stalker in the regard that like I was like oh like he likes the power and he likes to get a rise out of me he he likes to hack into
My phone and then I’m like freaking out and he knows that I’m freaking out about that and stuff like thatal torture I could like but I could like psychoanalyze that that’s why and so it it almost made more sense to me than someone who thinks that we’re dating
Like I think that like that level of insanity is different and scares me more yeah especially if he’s not coming to like your shows and stuff like that it’s very odd he would just like take pictures and yeah and come to my house and especially every single time after
I’ve moved within the first week he’ll like drop something off to my new house or something like that and I like have I get all my houses under like an alias like you can’t like look up where I live like if if you do it’s fake like you
Know what I mean like it’s like so like you really have to like like maybe is it like a tracking or something to say like track you know I saw on a movie when someone was a tracking device track in the car we had like a whole spiral about
That too like we’ve just like and then people always comment and say like it’s the top comments on canceled like a couple weeks ago we’re like What if it’s one of your friends like selling information but like they’re all like so terrified and like the people who know
Where I am are like Omari who would nevering do that and is equally as terrified like right close Circle but you do have like a of people that just know you and know yeah but he’s just done so many things where like if I was
At like a beach house with like like we were at a beach house in like Malibu that we like went to for a couple days and it was like me Amari Ashley like literally just like my best [ __ ] friends and it was like he showed up and
It was like they’re the only people who know and they’re here equally terrified with me like how do you ever do you make it like not that you need to but do you make it clear like this is unwanted that you ever be can you stop you told him
I’ve never told him I’ve like said it online a million times like he if you love me online but you don’t know me but I feel like that’s what scares me too is like the insanity of like if I’m saying that okay if you love me online but you
Don’t know me personally yeah don’t do this a sane person can register that but what if he’s like I I do know you I’m dating you we’re in love right and that happens I mean that definitely happens when people think that stocking is like so serious and it’s like not looked at
As criminal or not at least like people don’t get booked criminally for it I 100% agree I’ve always thought this it’s just like people look at stalking as like oh someone’s just like obsessed with someone like it’s like I feel like people almost look at stalking as like a
Crush gone way too far or something that and it’s like such a serious [ __ ] crime yeah especially cops too every time the cops came they’re like what do you do online and you know all the stuff like that and they blame that like you
Know what I mean even if I didn’t say I made like o I was just like I make videos online like oh well that’s what you sign up for like I recommend just deleting your social media I’m like okay well that yeah like they don’t get it oh
Yeah I had that conversation with 880,000 cops yeah even I mean always say even with mainstream celebrities like the police are still going to be like you chose this life and it’s so crazy it is it’s w you you need just 24hour security it’s like so so scary and it’s
Almost with influencers you just they know you more than celebrities you know what I mean so of course they’re going to feel that connection to you especially guys and stuff like that oh man so at this point you’re not saying anything cuz I don’t know I don’t know
The safety protocol to like I wouldn’t communicate with him obviously either but it’s like what do you do you can’t just keep moving so you just get more security more cameras security more cameras more guns more everything do you have do you have do you have protection my security has like so many
Like it’s just and there and I love my security because they have been my security for like four almost 5 years now and like they’re at my house every day so we become like really like they’re like family to me it feels very safe like I’m so paranoid hate going out
A dark I hate and then when I came to do canceled I felt very safe like I’m really paranoid and um just in general not even if it was you I’d just be like oh I don’t want to go out at night but the fact that they’re like right out
There yeah it’s it’s great and they can’t nobody can get by no one can miss and I think that’s the great thing and they just like I really I feel peace of mind knowing how close I am with them where it’s like I could call them if one
Security was off a shift and I called them like they’d be there like family like they really if someone was trying to hurt me I know they would like that’s good that’s really important but I would just love to one day not and obviously
That’s on me too like I want to live in Hollywood you know I’m like interesting why do you like Hollywood cuz I when we went to visit you and then we went to dinner after it’s like it’s so and I used to love Hollywood but it’s just
Like the Magic’s like not there what do you love about it yeah it’s I’m definitely I don’t feel magic there but I well kind of there’s like certain things like when I lived in Laurel Canyon I loved living there from like the history of it like you know what I
Mean like that like the Laurel Canyon like the doors and like Jim Morrison and all like living there like I thought all that like I think old Hollywood I find that cool definitely yes um but I don’t know I’m just laid as to everything I think that’s like literally the main
Thingal you’re actually you can ask Paige like I I I don’t travel far for like anyone you are the farthest I go for anyone ever all the time it is amazing and you actually come like today you were like actually on I literally told them I think you were like noon and
Then we got reset one and I said she’ll probably be here like two or three like that’s and then when you guys were on your way at time I was like just starting Glam I was like oh my god do a quick Glam the first couple times I came
Here I really underestimated it it is we it’s like road trip to trishas but I love it now like it’s fun as I’m always just like I face tune my photos the whole car ride every single time who drives who drives you Paige okay so I
Always I love that I don’t love to drive you know I’m not a driver like he always drives now and I just not a driver I well I never learned wait what I still don’t know I don’t know how to drive at all at all you don’t have driver’s
License no I don’t I just have you driven a car I want Trisha I’m not even kidding you under like 12 times wait what even for your reality show you never were like let’s just get a driver’s license or something I tried and I literally could not get it like
It’s it’s funny cuz I I’m I want it so bad I just like it’s very weird cuz it’s so second nature to people but like my parents never taught me like no like none of that like no childhood like they were never you know what I mean they
Like to them it was like you know what I mean like a burden for them to like teach me to do that wow um and I moved out here by the time I was like 16 and then like uber came about and like I always just been passenger princess in like all my
Friends cars and like wow eventually it got to the point where I was like I need to learn but you it’s very hard to learn especially in Los Angeles yeah it’s so hard especially if it’s like it’s not like it is such a foreign thing to me do
You know what I mean like I know nothing about it I’m already like I’ve taken driver Zed classes a million times I’ve had like private instructors like and Amari will be sitting there dying laughing at like actually how little I know it’s almost like languages if you
Learn as a baby it’s easy and I think if you learn as like 15 16 it’s like fresh but then the older you are it’s just like yeah must be like more difficult to like learn and stuff and I’ve just never taken the time and I like scare myself
With my ADD like just like I I could just see myself like being like you know what I mean like well I feel like you don’t really need it cuz you always like anyways are with people so it kind makes sense you know I love car time as work
Time like I love to like be B to like best do emails or edit or do anything else like I need to learn I I think just like knowing it and having it and having the like idea of just going in your car to get something but yeah it also does
Scare the [ __ ] out of me if I was really in a situation where like I had to like literally be the getaway driver I think like everyone would die like it’s like I literally like figure it out I yeah maybe I don’t know driving is crazy and
Also like the other thing that it gets scary I don’t like to drive anywhere by myself I had never gone anywhere with just me and my daughter cuz I like the idea of being kidnapped like when you’re getting into your car you see all those like sex trafficking things like the
Tassel on your car my the windshield wiper I would I see those all theing time I could not the thought of being in a parking garage alone in a car at night is actually my worst so in a way that’s good because like I never like he used
To drop me off at like my eyebrow appointment just cuz I didn’t like to go any like it’s scary like it’s like you know just having people around or like you know kidnapping in your car or being in your back seat and for so long I was
Just like so drunk on Xanax 24 s in like dark times in my life where it was like and I’ve seen so that it’s crazy like too just how many people I’ve seen in Hollywood who like celebrities people just whatever like [ __ ] up on drugs and driving and like drunk driving and
Like that’s so scary too cuz so many people do they just get in the car cuz they think they’re fine and they’re okay and and just nighttime driving is scary I mean people are bad drivers you have to like look out for other people driving is scary at night time I really
Don’t go anywhere like unless he’s like with me cuz I just can’t do it at night for so many reasons also people like jump in your car break your car like there’s car jackings there’s actually a lot oh my God I know and more fears to
Be new fears un I love that you resonate with me on that though I’m such a paranoid fing person I saw a text that ice F posted your Tik Tok what no way oh my God stop that’s the best compliment because I get scared yes I love the idea my
Dream is to always be recognized by some when I cosplay and it never happens and Ice is like the biggest she was just with be David on like she’s so big and I always get nervous to I’m like what if they’re like this is embarrassing this is cringe like who’s this fat person
Like trying to emulate me whatever so that’s just your thought well Matt hey called her chubby and I was just like oh my god what the hell ice spice chubby yes he said like a CH he called her like a chubby like Asian girl or something
Like that I was just like wait what yeah it was and Ice spice forgave him and I was like ice spice you’re better than me but like yeah my’s the worst I mean I didn’t know anything abouty I was like she’s literally so fit I was watching her on as anal just like
Damn like to me to think M he is like so fing hot and now I’m F I always I just like cuz I look at someone and I oh my God it’s like when people it’s so funny because he looks exactly like his personality would be that do you know
What I mean yes I love that kind of look and it’s like I want find a guy who looks like that but like doesn’t act like they look you know what I mean he just gives me so much ick and then when he said that about ice spice I was like
E you’re so ick ice SP fan now I really love her she’s just the best I think there’s like very few people come along where I’m just like I love this girl she is just She’s so different she’s such a breath of fresh air she’s so herself I
Love it I love the way she was on S and now just like shaking her little butt like that’d be me if I was a rapper like just you know not little it’s a good butt it’s a butt to the her she was in the ending monologue of SNL and Pete was
You know you know like thank you to I spice for like whatever and she was just standing next to be just like Po like yeah yeah just being c yeah it was just like she was just doing her thing like she just always I love it no I I can’t
Wait to host SEL one day I think it’d be so fun to be like God wait if you host can I be your musical guest um AB Trish I wouldn’t have it any other way cuz I think you would have more likely a chance to host cuz you’re more popular
But I could be the music guest I saw that Viral tweet the other day that it was like it’s 20:30 and Trisha P us as a daytime talk show a oh God I would love it I I really really I like saw that what like yes it was like a funny meme
But I was like that’s exactly what’s going to happen oh my God I I can visualize it I can manif see you in like a Wendy Williams spot be great you know Wendy Williams only got paid $55,000 an episode which is like a lot but like not
A lot cuz she was kind of to be more right so she’s only getting like a million dollars a month which is like again huge I’ll take it I want to do it for like the Billboards cuz no one’s watching daytime TV but I would totally
Do it to get like Billboards and show for hour people watch that’s one thing that like is just like I I know they’ve like tried like didn’t Liza Koshi or lily sing one of both of them did a late night did Liza Grace had one on e oh
Grace did have had one she had like Hillary Duff on her show she I feel like they took stabs at it with them but they’ve like never done it again know I know I always thought that I was always like so bitter cuz I’m like but I’m
Funny like they should have tried it with me 100% honest to God I feel you but not but you know what Lily is funny I think they just kind of did her wrong with like the writing on the show and they put her in late hard that is what’s
So hard cuz like yeah like they’re they all have like put out so much funny content but it’s like things like that it’s like they take away all the creative direction right and that’s what’s kind of like the tough part about it I’m just like oh man I don’t know but
Maybe like give YouTubers chance who was it some YouTuber just went mainstream again and everyone’s like yes maybe this is a win for who was it I’ve been watching you know what I think you would really love if you haven’t seen it already what the demilio show on Hulu
Okay I’m kind of getting in my demilio era I bought the perfume I kind of love that Dixie just like wild just like I’m done with this I want to marry Rich I’m like okay girl just speak the truth you would reallying like their show it’s
Like a baby Kardashians is it like I can’t stop watching it I always okay maybe we’ll start that because we don’t really have a lot of shows and we were watching the kashion and I’m over the kashion cuz of the Tristan Story Time like he triggers me every time he comes
On the stream story is it’s yeah they’re really pushing him as a good dad and it gets me upset and I’m just like okay stop like yeah I missed the old Kardashian episodes where it was like real mother like like Kim hitting Chloe with that purse purse I mean I never
Watched it but I like that I like The Vibes I loved what I for what dides she say again like don’t be rude yeah that’s the best that’s so good Isabella is being that my bestie she’s being that exact out outfit like oh are you guys
Going to rec she’s I think she’s just being that Kim I love that but she needs someone to like hit or something right honestly I’ll tell her that I’ll I’ll do that yeah do it you’re you’re so I love that you’re so down to just do everything with your friends it’s so
Cute I love Halloween is like the one time of year where like people can get me like I’m like what do you want to dress up as let’s do it all like excited oh my god when you said you were going to cover this like yes cuz I love
Halloween too and I don’t have like anyone fun to dress up with I know and I I always we said in the beginning of this episode but I just love someone who loves it as much as me it’s so fun and also like people don’t get embarrassed you know some people get embarrassed
Like you get a big wig like this and like I don’t want to wear this you know what I mean I love that you love it to you’re like feeling it cuz I feel it too whenever I’m in costume I’m finally secure enough now to where I want to do
I used like I’ve always only wanted to do like [ __ ] like even this it’s like yes it’s big hair but it’s like very you know but like this year is the first year where I’m like I want to be Michael Jackson and Adam Sandler I want to be Dr
Phil so bad oh Dr Phil would be so good have you done that oh no I feel like I could have seen you doing that you be no I would I don’t like to be too ugly like I like to still be pretty or I would love
With thetics on his face I really want to do that I I take it there I think maybe next year I’m I want to like have a whole year where I just do only ugly like you know what I mean yeah I feel like you should still do Michael Jackson
This year but I you’re just going to be the one like you’re like regular Michael Jackson with sparkly but you just haven’t thought that through what I haven’t and I have so many this year already where I’m like you kind of like Michael Jackson like do you know that I
In high school before I got a nose job when I had brown hair in high school it’s so funny that she doesn’t know this was my trigger for years I’m not even literally kidding you Trish before I got a no job and brown hair I felt like I
Looked just like like modern Michael Jackson okay like 2001 Michael Jackson or 1995 Michael Jackson like there so manyas right before like okay so oh so like 2000s like I was I literally I think that when I went in to get my nose job I was like just un michif find me oh
You didn’t like the fact that cuz he had a good nose I liked his nose I thought he had good on I can’t remember or maybe I was just so pale and my hair was so dark that’s why they called you Michael Jackson you kind have like his eyes a
Little bit like I thought Michael Jackson was so hot I’m like full embrac like I want the Hat on I want to like do it all like oh yeah there’s so many good Michael looks you would do I feel like you should do a touring Michael Jackson
When he had like the gold like bodysuit and like I don’t know his sunglasses can I do that without a scandal yeah I think so someone was Wendy Williams the other day as long as you’re not like yeah you know I think just don’t I think you just
Can’t change like your the color no plans on that Scandal are doing that yeah I it is it is a tricky one and I think but I think you can it’s like I love like Princess Tiana so I did a cosplay with her cuz I actually everyone’s like you should be the blonde
Friend and I’m like but I want to be Tiana cuz she has like the cool dress and stuff like that so I think it’s more like yeah you just don’t you know I want to be Peppa Pig really bad cuz I’m that’s my like ad sand Peppa Pig is my
Other Obsession but then your head’s like this the whole time cuz it’s always profile right oh my god I didn’t even I was just thinking regular Pig Prosthetics but what if we really took it there yeah you have to be profile wait if you’re well if you want to do
Regular Pig you could do like Miss Piggy I love Miss Piggy I never did her you Miss Piggy that was my trigger as in school people called me Miss Piggy but now I love herous people literally tweet me all the time that I give them Miss
Piggy but I love it Miss Piggy that makes me feel better cuz I always just thought cuz I’m fat they’re like miss piggy piggy yeah she really like you know she’s Camp She we go to the meal as Miss pigy ab and that’s why I’m never
Going to go because I would just do some [ __ ] you know saw do cat vaping at the mealla this year I felt so seen well I think she’s Uninvited I don’t think she’s invited back after that that’s what I mean that’s what I mean you know
Oh man doat was so cool until she kind of she kind of went off the deep end I really liked her too but I I’m torn I’m like a little behind it but I love some weird are they Illuminati or not [ __ ] yeah well she had a shirt where
She had like a neon you can bleep that NE on her shirt but then she was like I didn’t know it was and I get that maybe she she said she’s like the shirt I could see that like you don’t know who’s on it I didn’t know who it was I know I
Like her too I don’t know but then I hear she’s problematic but then I’m problematic so I shouldn’t judge anyone sometimes when I hear people problematic like oh I don’t want to be and I don’t know maybe cuz I really want to her on the podcast and I was like oh no I’m
Like wait I’m so problematic like why would I say no all my stuff in my pth me judging I’m that girl it definitely depends I’m like that too I pick and choose with my like problematic like you know what I mean I some people problematic I love some people
Problematic well that’s what we were saying earlier I was like you know there’s certain people that I’m just like like they’re I wish I could like them but because of like that one problematic there’s certain things I have like a stance on where I’m just
Like I have to hold to this even if they’ve grown and stuff like that you know there’s but I I don’t know I I I can be judgy sometimes I try to let it go I try not to judge people I feel like lately every time I see you in a video
Talking about something you’re like I used to be judging about this person but now I love them like you have really transformed thanks I do even the demilio like God I was so hard on them you remember the snail gate where like she like ate a snail and I was like so mad
About it I was just like you snobby I was like so mad it is so funny to like look back and be like crazy like over a snail like you know what I mean just like over a snail yeah and now she’s just like I love her too she has like no
She does not care at all in that she really doesn’t give a [ __ ] Dixie and I like that she like I’m over this like give me a rich man I’m going to love that you know and Charlie’s just like the sweetest little angel yeah she seems
Like cool and I like love that they just have their own show funny too yeah like I’ve had a lot of experiences with her like when we’re just like talking Dixie too where they’re like quick like funny and I’m like damn I the last time I ever
Seen them talk was on the views podcast and it was so awkward and weird but I’m going to blame David on that one I I mean their brand is huge and you know what I mean like they’re they protect certain things but like person to person
Like I really do like I think they’re their whole family I love I love it to I love the parents cuz they’re not fcking weirdos like I oh my God poor Addison yeah it’s just sad he’s still out there doing T to cuz we talked the other day
Yes he still makes Tik toks cuz we’re like wait what happened to him and then we went like oh my God he’s still doing like cringy stuff no [ __ ] way he’s not getting as much like attention but yeah that’s lla was just talking about him on stage at my show and I
Remember like thinking to myself I was like damn what where that’s crazy I thought he stopped yeah no he’s still out there doing it I was like oh man and you kind of have to feel bad you know you’re just like damn and she’s like killing it she’s like know in the movie
And stuff like that love I love all them yeah I it is I think it all just came out a place of like jealousy like you know Charlie blew up so big and I think like even though I was like 30 I was still like jealous I’m kind I wish I was
16 years old like blowing up well this like whole LA and especially that time you know you like now you were you’re doing your thing and you’re chilling but when you’re surrounding yourself with people who care so much about numbers like it like can with your head really
Really heavily yeah the older you get to it’s just like oh man you’re not keeping up with this and this and I feel like you know I like for so long even when you came around I was just like so it was almost envious I was just like wow
Like I wish I would have like popped off when I was young I wish I could have had even like tanacon like I all this stuff like that I was like wow she’s like getting all these opportunities your reality show and it’s like you know you compare yourself and then you’re getting
Older and you’re like oh I’ll never get that I’m aged out I’m this and it’s so funny cuz like I at that time I was doing the same thing to the Tik Tok stars or whoever just like the new you know what I mean it just like your brain
Just starts to do that especially when like your job and your worth and your job is placed numerically you know it’s like it’s very weird you know it is great to be like at my age now where it’s like there’s no way I’m going to compete with like an Alex Earl not that
I would have with you either but you know what I mean you’re just like not competing anymore well and you just like eventually learn that it’s like [ __ ] that like you know what I mean like [ __ ] that mind State like I am me and it this
It just it is what it is and like comparison is just always like the root of all evil I remember like when I um parted ways with someone I’d worked with for a very long time like in the industry well I mean I guess I can’t
Even say it like that when I party away with my old manager um there were rumors going around that he was managing this girl and I’d heard through the grap Vine and I don’t know if he said this and we’re so cool now so I’m not like coming
At him at all but I he started managing this girl who was coming up on Tik Tok and I had heard through the grap Vine that he was calling her new tana and I remember and it was like it hurt so much cuz it was like someone that was so
Close to me saying that right and it made me just Harbor this like horribly intense negative feeling towards like all that and then I and not not even just towards her towards the whole situation but like in a way yes like I’d see her videos and it’s like at one
Point I loved her content but I would like want to skip it because it was like I the feeling towards that and then eventually I got to know her and she was amazing and you know now it’s like we both just have our own careers and we
Slay and like whatever and but it’s just so funny how much [ __ ] like that can get in your head oh yeah I I think I had you muted for like a long time cuz I was just like oh my God you’re doing like everything I want to do I’m like let me
Just not cuz it’s so and this was like a while ago but like he does so funny I’ve always felt that way about you I do absolutely nothing I sit at home at my house you’re living your life like you you just underestimate like how viral
And iconic you are really do I really do cuz I don’t see that at all I look at other people and I used to so much I look at other people but as coming from someone who would like get your managers after you and I don’t know if it was
Like I don’t feel like it was inadvertently I just like met them through you and I didn’t know any manager so I was just like hey like do you want whatever they willing to take me on just like I said about all the brands or whatever then they’re willing
To take you on we we but the problem is then they’re like well Tana made this much and tana did this and I was just like then it made me start feeling bad about myself like with o they were telling me you made so much and I was
Like oh my God like I was not making that that’s just crazy like even that like that’s crazy yeah they would like like sharing how much money I like that’s true that’s so on both of us though like it’s and it’s no but that’s that’s just like act that’s [ __ ]
Absolutely crazy yeah cuz it was it was so nuts and then I just couldn’t I just ended up feeling bad about myself and then I became in this place of desperation where I’m just like okay I got to do this I got to do this to keep
Up and it’s just like just not having to keep up with anyone it’s just like nice and it’s just you know when you finally just realize it’s like not about that but it’s so hard cuz for so long same way like I just I felt the same way and
I feel like you’re just in your own category cuz there are so many girls that are like there are so many that there’s like a dime a dozen of so it’s like that probably was even harder but you’re like in your own category where I feel like you can’t be really compared
To like an Alex or like who else I don’t know who else I really appreciate you saying that because I for like now I finally feel secure that I’m just doing me and whatever [ __ ] happens happens but I spent so long where it’s like all I would do comparing numbers comparing
This comparing that especially with YouTube I think that the worst with Tik Tok it’s like there’s millions of videos and it’s whatevering Happ Happ there was a point in time when it was like you and me and Jeffrey and Shane and David and Jake and Logan and there were there was
Just like a select few YouTubers that also kind of were YouTubers but personalities outside of it and whatever and like all you would do is is my thumbnail as good as there’s my title as good as there many views oh my God views per hour of the video how many views did
That person do in one hour how many VI I fun of people for getting 300,000 views like me but the people I was around but I get what you’re saying like it was like such a thing and then it made you just it made me [ __ ] crazy it a and I
Look back now at so much [ __ ] that I remember being like I remember like sitting in my room like I am a [ __ ] failure I need to go be a waiter tomorrow I’m a failure I am horrible at what I do like no one gives a [ __ ] about
Me and it’s like I look back at that video and like a video will have like 3 million views and it’s like I was sobbing over a video that like like that’s so nuts it is crazy cuz especially at the height of like Shane he was getting like 20 30 million views
And you’re just like I will never get that and I was like his friend at the time so I was just like I don’t know what I’m doing I felt embarrassed and because we like you know he’d make fun of people like not getting views not
Make fun of you know people like oh my God they only get 50,000 views and you’re just like what and then you start like okay that’s going to be me that is me it happened to me you know what I mean it’s just that’s exactly how I felt
With like Logan and David like and then they were like I love Logan so much but I mean David as well like like I don’t love David as well but I’m saying David as well at the time was my great like my friend but it’s like you you still like
Even though they’re your friends yeah like you’re just comparing yeah feel some type of way for sure and if you didn’t get the views you just thought well like you know I don’t hold up like I’m a piece of [ __ ] at my whole job and career and everything and it’s like it
Is wild to think that like T why were you comparing your Vlogs to Logan Paul are two completely different [ __ ] videos yeah that to interesting cuz I never would have compared like I always tried it mine was like Gabby or something you like oh you know are we
Getting the same amount of views oh I’m getting more views okay that means I’m doing better I forgot yeah there was a there was definitely an error in the beginning of my career with like Gabby cuz she would do the story times where I would be like comparing
You guys were like Master story time together you being meos were like okay together we’re doing stuff I was like oh my God powerhouses here I love yeah we we tried to really I love it you came together yeah we did we did and like we
Had some fun moments I always her I always like I hope she’s good like you know what I mean she seems yeah yeah anyways did you watch Logan’s fight I did you on the edge of mying seat was it okay I even I don’t know where to watch
These things I don’t know I’m also no it’s like a whole thing on the TV like I I always come crying to Amari if I want to watch a fight can you please put it on the so you’re a boxing fan I love to watch it wait really go Jeff was like
Trying to go into this and I was like I don’t even cuz with Jeff here trying to sell it it’s like oh [ __ ] shut up you know what I mean but I love it because the drama yeah like the drama of the way that these like people come at each
Other for months and months before the fights and air out their whole lives and then it feels like this final moment where it’s like there’s a winner and a loser and the people putting their whole reputations on the [ __ ] line like so is it real that buildup then or is it
Literally just to create tension for the fight I think both like do you think like Logan was affected by I think yes I think that like Logan had in my opinion like you know I mean he I don’t think he ever thought signing on to that fight
With Dylan danis that it would go so personal against someone he loves so much I also think Logan is the type of person that like if it was at him he can take anything but like at someone he really loves and cares about that had to
Have it was all about her and like nothing about him yeah and I think and then it’s like you know on the fight he’s saying like I forgive you Dylan and I’m here to do my job and I’m not going to let my emotion get into it but it’s
Like you’ve got to be like at least I would be like you know what I mean f but it was always set up right for Dylan to lose like it’s set up no it’s not it’s real I don’t think so cuz I mean they made it obvious he was like the villain
Through this whole thing everyone like I didn’t even follow him and I just saw like every that’s just how Dylan danis has always been okay like as a fighter He’s just never fought someone where I think he was coming for them and people cared right you know what I mean so he’s
Always just been like that person yeah that like troll like no he he like brought me into one of his little trolling schemes once and that’s the only way I know he was like gonna fight Jake or something and I was like drunk out at the club one night and I was take
This was like just a very different time and I was taking photos with a bunch of people and he came up I didn’t know him from like Adam re he was like can I take a photo and I just taken a photo with someone else so I post and then he was
Like tweeting it like got your girl like blah blah blah all this [ __ ] and that was how I found out who he was so I think that’s also why and I love nah like Logan’s girl so much so I was very much like you know sad oh like Pro her
Yeah yeah and like yeah Logan beat his ass oh my gosh that’s wild I know Ava do you know Ava Louise yes she like totally like outed him like I guess she hooked up with him and she was like dude I love her wild she’s wild she is just like does not
Care talks about everyone and I think I was like a little bit like that’s why I have a little soft spat for her cuz I feel like maybe not maybe I was I don’t know but I used to like talk about like every single person I hooked up with and
I’m like wow and like looking at it now you’re like oh my God that’s so wild but I guess I did that too so I’ve done it just like name dropping every like shut up T there’s a few where I could have just shut the up yeah it’s it’s wild but
She was talking about like I guess she hooked up with Dylan danis I’m why she doesn’t have like a podcast or something who’s your dream person to dress up with this is going to sound like such a lie but like today I’m not kidding you dressing up with you was like my
Absolute dream no way because like again like you just love this [ __ ] you’re a [ __ ] icon like we finally did it I never I like I never thought we’d like get to do a matching costume and like I can’t think of anyone else I have wanted
To dress up with more than you literally today like the best roller coaster of my life I’m not even kidding you I love you and it’s so fun and I never like it never like exhausted it’s always just like wow what a whirlwind that’s why anyone will be so lucky to date you
Because you are just like so fun and you’re so sweet and you’re so pretty and minus the farting like you’re a 10 you would have you’re like a 15 out of 10 and then the farting BR you 10 see me how you see me I need everyone to see
Me how you see me you know how much they call you like what you were on Whitney and she called you like the marily mon of Our Generation I’m like that’s a hug is delusional no she’s not I feel like she’s never like that nice to I mean
She’s nice but not she is so nice to me to the point you and Whitney like there’s certain people like that where it’s like I love cuz like I’m the same way like [ __ ] energy and I have my soft spots and the people I love you know and people like you and Whitney
Always like just it warms my heart to see someone love that much when like if you didn’t like me you would you would make it no but that’s not that we speak for everyone you know it’s not just me it’s not wi it’s like there’s this whole
We’re older than you too it’s like seeing that in you and like seeing this like young girl like be this like star and just like the It Factor you so much Trish and like every single compliment that comes from you is like the highest honor because I love you so much and
Like I really just like you’re my twin you’re my [ __ ] you’re my girl that’s the best Al ever cuz I look at you and I just see like wow just star power in so many ways and you and I are the same no I mean people just there’s a light
People talk about you people love you girls love you talk about you and people love you no no no one’s talking about me I’m in my basement making a podcast but you know what I mean it’s everyone’s talking about I don’t think she you understand how many conversations I have
In my day-to-day life with people like about how amazing you are on tour I was telling you this off off the podcast but like if I even say your name on stage like I’m putting the mic down so people can share for like a minute I wish I I
Wish I could have been there for that cuz I experienced that even at my own shows just be like yes [ __ ] she’s just no when your La show are you guys going to do an LA one we will eventually do an LA show and I would love for you to be
There and had I known that you would have even remotely implored the idea of coming to San Diego I will invite you to all shows within that D instantly we love San Diego we always go down there for like sushi we drive for food sushi in theing
Canel podcast oh we would have been down there in a harpie I was so sad that it happened that day before and broo was like it just happened I was like oh my God I would have come just like I always am like oh my God I don’t want to bother
You but I will you were invited to Everything I Do forever I know you like to the Halloween party which is very nice and I was just like oh my God that giv you so much anxiety like we had a whole conversation where they were like invite Trisha to the Halloween party and
I was like you guys I know her it starts at 10 p.m. she’s going to be so like she’s going to she just won’t want to be around so many [ __ ] people who will probably be there I just know you know so many people and I just have so much
Anxiety and like one side of beefs with so many people that I’m just like I don’t want to you my parties do they stress me the out and that’s why I was like and they were like just invite her and I was like I will I’ll give her the
Courtesy invite but I would bet my foot she’s going to skip this one out is that funny and I always I usually like hate like usually that’s when I like ghost I get in trouble for like not responding back I don’t know how to respond because
I hate saying no to people yeah um so usually get an invite and it’s like like a week later I’ll be like oh my God I just saw this I always I love and I just saw this I love and I just saw this but
Like I love I hope you know we have the Friendship where you could literally just be like [ __ ] no and I’d be like SL but we have the Friendship where you know that I can’t come out at 10:00 at night with a bunch of influencers not at
All even if I was 20 years old I that would give me anxiety like it would be me anxiety you get sponsored are you getting like paid um I’m doing it with that guy the like Russian guy so he’s just he’s just we’re doing our thing and
It’s going to be fun I’ll come give you the recap yes oh my God please and I’m excited oh my God please come back in November when can we schedule it page can we write down when she’s great the scheduling I was like I gave her date
And I was like October 17th I’m like perfect she is the absolute goat I would be dead without her and I will I will reoccur right here as long as you want me to reur I want to get the recap on the Halloween I want to get a on the
Hallowen party at any time in life too we got to break this down over some barbaritas or at least just that chili oh my gosh barbaritas we need to do a Madonna in let’s invite holie and it’s so funny do not she like no girl what no we’re going to try
Honestly maybe maybe she will it’s so funny because every time I leave here I leave here with a million new plans with you and we’re actually executing them like last time we were like let’s be them Bots no I’m actually shocked cuz you’re so busy so I was just like oh my
Gosh cuz last yeah never too busy for you I was I was shake that this happened and you’re like so punctual so on time I was like oh my God this is so great absolutely never ever too busy for you oh my gosh thank you for having me thank
You for coming oh my gosh you guys Trish P us keep forish us [ __ ] godamn it I love you I love you too that was great oh my go
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